Surgury

This Is Just a Lantern of blood, n was playing with it seh, so cute.

Dear Diary,

2day, uncle had to so for surgery...well i dont have much to tell u abt my work at the ward, so straight after work, i called my mum and ask her to pick me up at the lobby, haha, i dont really know where is the day surgery, when i came there, uncle was on bed eating biscuit and drinking milo, n guess wat i found, metal n srews tat was place in my uncle's body to maintain the growth of his bone after the passed 2years accident..it really look cool, n crazy me, i go n took picture of it just to place it here in blog, haha, but guess wat, in ward i saw more screws n metal tat was from my patient's leg, longer n bigger, wah scary...i think tats all i got to write...buh-bye all...

Hate Tat Patient's Wife

Dear Diary,

2day was not really my day, i had lots of things to do at work, ok la early part of the day was kinda bored and killa said today my cubical like got nothing jek eh, then when come to night time, i'm the one is getting all the work done n some of them, i think i'm invincible, i'm running like one mad person, n staff nurses keep on asking me to do this n that, then here comes one uncle to the hospital, then i ask faizuan if i could do the admission, then i do with him la, well tis uncle the urine yg case come n go tau, nak dtg bile bile mase. Antie keep on asking me for urinal and, stupid of her, why cant she go n tell faizuan, n i'm really buzy, then i go n take la, i was like a mad person walking at my fast speed and there she goes, tell another patient's wife tat i'm so slow and ape die kate, tergelek2, wtf seh, then the other patient's wife so helpful give me a urinal full of urine and take the empty urinal n give to the patient. N guess wat, when i go to my cubical there, all my friends crowed there n stand at the coridor n chatting. I got really angry, but i did not show it off.

Faizuan told me the auntie told him tat i'm slow n tergelek2, n fuck her la, next time ask faizuan to take it la for u. Then at abt 7+pm she ask me again "Yang, pakcik nak berak." Tat time i'm still angry with her, then faizuan was there and i tell him to give him commode, guess wat he say, awk tolong kte la....then make a smile, but i make a face tat tells tat i'm angry, i could feel the blood flowing through me brain n face, then i walk as fast speed n take the commode myself, then faizuan tell me okok i'm sorry biar kte bagi, then i go to my cubical n check if got anything, then i relax one corner where got air, then i took a deep breath and try to calm myself down.

Guess wat, i heard tat uncle is going to have a urine cattiter, haha take tat auntie, say i'm slow and tergelek2, padan muke, now u really make uncle feel the pain, wat i know uncle is innocent only auntie go la fuck herself.

-=Notes=-

CP Afternoon shift friends: sorry if i got no mood tat day, i was kinda angry with you guys for not helping, but i know its my fault not asking to help. But do take care of ur own cubical k, i had enough of 2day n i dont want it to repeat again.

Faizuan: Thanks for saying sorry, but its not really ur fault, just got angry with the auntie.

Auntie: Do u know tat wat u just did bring my self-esteem down? Thanks to u now my mind keep on hearing ur voice when u keep on saying i'm slow and terheger2, i'm doing lots of things tat time, why dont u ask faizuan to do all your dirty stuff.

Emotional Day, Suhaimi Got Pinch By Me Again

Dear Diary,

2day, when going to school, i look at the time, its kinda late so i took the short cut then take bus from there, then i was walking alone, dah lah gelap pulak tu, in my mind was like, please oh please dont drop infront of my face, meanings the ghost la. Then idiot SUHAIMI go tap really hard at my shoulder and say something but i cant hear properly, seriously, when i turn, i dont c suhaimi u know, i saw something dark with white eyes, scary...his voice dah lah dlm, when he said tat u know la his tone kan...

Ya, today i dont know i felt wired, when someone just plain joking calling me names, just for 2day i cant take the jokes, Azmi won't stop calling me moron and basket, while suhaimi go spreading around abt the incident in the early morning, got a bit pissed off with doris, but lucky Fazli was there to bring me bck to life and teacher giving me competency for FEME, n here i'm typing me entry, i still feel something in my mind tat could not let the EMO thingy go away.

K lah, i think i better go shower and take a rest, mayb play some games would cheer me up.

My PolyClinic Attachment

Dear Diary,

Last week was my attachment week at polyclinic, overall it was fun and i felt sad when living the clinic...ok i know i know i did not update on my polyclinic days rite, so here i am to update from day one to end of week, here goes.

1st Day
2day meet raudah n grace to go polyclinic together, since is out first day me n raudah dont know where to go, but lucky grace was there, she guide us to the polyclinic, reach there really early abt 7.30am, we were really early and no one was there, so we sited at the long chair and waited abt 30mins then the preceptor was there telling us to go into the staff room n wait for her, we were like 3new born babies tat know nothing, a while later the preceptor came and tell us abt the polyclinic, its was a quick one, then was assign to a room to view the nurses handle the things, i was at the immunization room, it was full of babies and cute little toddles, haha, was really happy to c the babies, the nurses was a really friendly, talk to me and we had fun together, then it was time to go to bukit batok polyclinic to read up on wat n how polyclinic came abt, really boring there. I got hand pain when writing. Then off we go hm. Tired seh tat day.

2nd Day
I was assigned to Diabetes Eye N Foot Screen, it was really cool there, got praised by an uncle handsome seh, wahh, really embarrassed seh, hahaha...tat room was where my preceptor was in, so get to talk to her, listen to explanation, n she allow me to move to room 54 where eye screening was taking at, so i keep on moving here n there, but its fun u know, but its really cold. Afternoon preceptor ask me to go bck to immunization to replace the timing for yesterday, haha, get to c babies again....weeeee....then its time to go hm, its was fun get prised n get to see babies...hehe.

3rd Day
2day was assigned to Women's Clinic...heard was really boring, n ya it is really boring, but ones there is no more patients, wat else, me n staff nurse chat abt wats going on in the women's clinic, its really boring, n further more, there is no place to sit so got to stand the whole day till patient is gone. Overall, today was tired standing in waiting till patients all left, haha...

4th Day
2day was assign to Dressing & Treatment room, heard from raudah tat place is crowed n full like bloody wound and the wound is like having the yellow yellow stuff, sound so yucky n wanting to vomit, but when i go there, with all the EN and SN, they do the dressing, when i see the bloody wound i was not afraid at all, only one part when the wound is really big and lots of yellow yellow stuff all over the place, i do felt like vomiting, haha, for me to c blood was so fun, i wish i could dip my hand in a bucket of full fresh blood...wahh so cool seh, the staff there are really nice, i did enjoy myself in the treatment room, the u all wan to know some disgusting news or not? its from raudah, 2day she go care management, then grace was supposed to go to women's clinic but she when to care management to do her replace room, then when b4 going bck time, raudah saw grace digging her ear n licking her fingers and digging her nose real deep n eating the shit, omg, just by writing tis, i felt like vomiting, omg, then from tat on me n raudah was like avoiding her not really far la but like a few meters away from her...btw she saw it through the computer reflexion, n somemore, she did not wash her hands, she just touch here n there, the brochures la, there chair la, omg omg omg omg omg, and when b4 going to our respective rooms, i went toilet, then when i go out meet grace she was about to come out of the toilet with out washing her hands and she go out, i felt so disgusted i pursosly ask her, grace never wash hands ar, then she quickly run bck toilet n wash hands and u know her la, she will like make the cek sound, like, try tickling her n u hear the sound. That is the sound when i told her to wash hands....omg omg.
Me and raudah was like eeeewwww and we keep on laughing n laughing n we talk abt her in malay, she dont know....hahahahaha....

5th Day (Last Day)
Wahh...today last day seh, going to miss all the staff nurses and ENs...me raudah and grace brought cards for the polyclinic, hope they like it. Well 2day we took half day with preceptor due to our presentations and she want to discuss with us abt the assignment she gave us, tat is 2piece of paper, its quiet simple cause all we do is ask the staff abt the questions, n the test she gave us and we heard from her tat we all passed, we were really happy...so go to our last room and say good bye to all the SNs and ENs, really going to missed working there as a part-time passing case sheets to other rooms...haha...


Over all i think i did well for my polyclinic and got praised by preceptor that i'm intelligent. Haha...raudah was praised for having pretty eyes, but poor grace did not get praise by preceptor but she did get praised by SN n EN for so hard working...haha...ok la thats all for now...will update soon...buh-bye.

A boy who loves to make others jealous....

Dear Diary,

Yesterday i chatted with a boy on phone, he is also a bully, but he the type tat loves to bully by making other jealous, i guess all of u dont understand rite...haha...its ok, so i chat with the boy on phone for abt 3hours, estimated...tat is long ya i know...haha...cause we were bored, so we talk n talk n talk, he talk to me abt a boy in his group tat he love to make him jealous, his type is just abt the same like my type, soft n gentle, but one problem with him is tat he is easily jealous of me n the boy, also dont know wat is the reason. The boy told me, everytime he talks abt me, he got jealous and b like a girl go telling others tat the boy make him jealous, i know wat the boy is feeling, he sure felt some kind of connection between the boy n him, like a love jealousy u know, i was also some sort treated like tat b4 when im in sec, n tell u all the truth, i some sort felt in love with him, dont know why, but after he was kick out of school, i cried almost everyday missing him, but when i got friends, n grown up a little, i understand the motive of tis type of people who love to make others jealous, just to make fun, n enjoy others get jealous, and will not have feelings for the person.

So boy, u heard wat i say? If u dont want him to fall in love with u much, listen to wat i say, stop making him jealous and think of others feelings, if u got a girlfriend he will get more n more jealous and he might hurt ur girlfriend or he could commit suicide just because of jealousy. I care for u n him, i dont wan either of u getting hurt ok? I hope u are reading and please listen ok...

I dont want to say out names so i use colours to make it different.
Blue is the boy i talk to n love to make others jealous.
Yellow is the boy who got bully n forced made jealous.

Was Praised!!!!

Dear Diary,

2day went to my mum's friends house, also my friend house la...then when me n siblings step in the house, guess wat, my friends parents keep on praising us one kind seh, some more me la, uncle keep on saying, sabri so handsome seh, keep on repeating n repeating, untill my face turn so red, n my smile so big seh, haha...my friend was looking at me. It had been so long since we met la, still the same old me and my friends all grown big n tall too...some more my friends little bro was big already seh, was so shock. Did not get to take picture with them la, 1st shy, 2nd i'm a guy, i dont mind taking pictures but i scared he would think something else la...so hack care...as long get to c them, ok already...going hm time, uncle repeat again, sabri u r sooo handsome and i'm sure ur girlfriend is preety too...wahh...for so long no one has prise me untill like tat. Really Happy, should not have smile too big la, i c it in the mirror, wah horrible.

But m i really tat handsome? i dont think so seh...haha..its ok la...handsome pun handsome la...buh-bye

((=

TPPC

Dear Diary,

Teacher told us our attachment at Polyclinic, wah tell u ar, i got TOA PAYOH SEH!!! its like so far n i was like, huh, why do we have to go so far, go ang mo kio better rite...stress, hope i could find my way there.

STRESS!!!!!!!!

We Going To Miss U Darling

Dear Diary,

Heard Tat one of our friends is going to quit nursing, its a painful thing to hear but its also a relived to know tat she is happy abt it, took picture with her b4 going home today...well by just writting tis entry, i could feel my tears flowing down my cheeks....and for all my attachment friends, we r not going to lose only 1 friend, our friend shafilla will b tranfering to SGH soon next year...shafilla why u have to go so far from us, with out u everything will b so plain. But the only think i can do now is to pray the best for my both friends. Hope our friendship is going to last long, dont 4get me ok...missed both of u already. Just hope our last day will b the best day ever ok...wah...losing friends is like downing with own tears...k lah dont wan to lose concentration, have to focus with or without friends. I Just wan to say, love u shafilla n love u see yueh...hope u get to read tis entry...Take Care All...

))'':

Cinema & Swimming Pool

Dear Diary,

2day was suppose to go yoges house for Deepavali but, sad to say something happen, so was bored, ask fazli if he want to go catch the latest movie, so we did, gone to the cinema and order our tickets and while waiting for the time, we go do some window shopping, n tell u we got our hands list full of things we wanted to buy...haha...so its now time to go watch the movie...the story is great and i love it...gone hm, suddenly mummy ask me to get ready to go swimming, but thinking back i got no swimming shirt n pants...the last time i wore it was so tight....so mummy ask me just to accmpony the 3cousin siblings of mine, haha...tell u its so fun, the baby was the one make the whole swimming thingy fun, he can swim seh, i bet u one day he can b a great swimmer...haha...just some pictures i took from there...haha...have fun....

"Couch, Teach Us Swin....Please"

The 2 Apprantice....

Couch Teaching Baby Murshik How To Fly....Under Water

GrandMum Let Go Of Me, I wan To Continue Swimming...Sob

BabyMurshik N I CamWhoring

Smile After Swimming.....

Its getting Late,time to go home....

A Really Fun Day @ Zoo

The 1st Time Zoo Was Not Boring!!! Only Pictures....hahaha

Zoo....Here We Come!!!!

My Grandmum's Fav, The Flowers....HaHa

BabyMurshik VS BabyPrinceSabri

Mummy & Me....Love Her

2 little Devils...Run Hear N There...Haiz


Sitting On A...CROCODILE!!!!

1 Seal Per Person....

Riding An Elephant

A Kiss To Make My Day Better

Kissing Seal GoodBye!!!

Birthday Boy Girl && My Problem

Happy 17th Birthday To Shakilla & Faizuan

Dear Diary,

2day I really felt hopeless and regret...counted my skills n i left with 6 skills to complete, how m i to survived...we only left with only 1 and 1/2 weeks to complete all the skills...when talking to teacher, almost cried when talking abt my personality and about how to complete my skills on time. All of this has already given me pressure sores in the ass....then heard from my mum tat me n family going zoo, so tat already done the wound dressing, then it bleed termendously cause my auntie like sarcastically scolded me for not coming to her house for Hari Raya, but then its also not my fault due to did not plan everything, all the planning was not done, so its like, hello, its not my fault during raya i cant come ur house la, then u also know tat i'm having attachment n planning with friends n all but u dont think, main shoot jek tau...n the pressure sores turn bigger due to misunderstanding between me and my auntie...Tat already make me not excited for the day at Zoo 2moro...I hope the wound dressing could b done soon...

Sorry people if i used the nursing term, trying to make my blog a bit interesting.

And abt the picture, i dont know it will turn out nice when i edit it with a bit of lining n wording...anyway Happy Birthday to Shakilla and Faizuan.

Have Hard Time Having A Friend

Dear Diary,

2day SIM was totally fine, wanted to go out n Role-play but did not...or else i could have done the infection control with shakilla...haha...

For the pass few days i felt the she had change to much seh, for sure if she n a person same shift, she will like go home together with the person, n as for me, we were close friends then i dont know why out of the sudden she like change and like everytime with him, did i do something wrong to get tis? I want to talk to her, but for the pass few days i felt like she is avoiding me and i kinda felt down seh, kalau kte merajok byk sgt i'm really sorry girl, i know i'm never a good fren rite, cant help u in tis n tat, c now u got prob, i cant really help, i dont want untill u say kte kpo nak tahu ni n tat, so i leave the problem to u k...kalau u need anything from me do feel free to beep my hp or talk to me personally. Really made me sad...i hope the girl knows who she is, so i dont have to write the name. Tats all...

*Notes*
->Syaf kalau kte msg bleh tak jwb balik, making me worried tau...
->Suhaimi, dont b irritating leh tak...or i give u another love bite on the right arm nak?
->Fazli, hope to meet u tomoro...wan to c the movie together...hehe

Got Bullied Again

Dear Diary,

Wah!!!, 2day i missed a discharge seh, n furthermore i dont know tat just by helping patient to keep his or her items is consider as assisting in discharge, n Suhaimi, please la, if ur discharge is already compitancy, do look out of us if there any discarge, not lieing to me tat u dont have discharge compitancy, oh my god, i done the assist discharge a lots of time n not realizing tat i'm doing discharge...lets see, i thought discharge was like change of clothes, items, wheelchair and then bring the patient down, stupid seh...my eyes is already big,so how m im still blind to look out for tis stuff....AHHHHH!!!!!!

Afternoon shift, got a staff nurse n a guy AN, thought they could help me or b kind to b but the AN kurang hajar seh, is my voice to soft? my friends could hear me but why the AN cant hear me, m i really so soft untill need a make over, even with a make over n with my attitude like tis, i will not b considered as a MAT RAPE still the same me...why cant i really show people i'm not like tis, if u really got irritated with me n my attitude, i can change into a girl, if i wan to...problem, my size is already a men size, if i change also, people will know i'm a guy, even i got a preety face people will still c me as tis...how i wish someone come to me n hug me, really need a long hug right now, cant take it seh...who would hug a person like me...sobsob.

I wonder how a guys hugs feels like, fazli dont allow me to hug him, n for sure, the other guys will like ewwww...hugging a guy is so gay, tat is wat i think they wold think after they read tis...

N I"M NOT A GAY!!!!!

Boring Oritation

Dear Diary,

Today me and syafiqah was on time for work, wah, really nervous when waitting for the bus, its so late, the ward was really a terrible place, 1st impression, the floor was wet and full of ants, even one of my patient, felt disgusted, 2nd impression, the bed was so old, it looks like a cage from afar, haha...spoil bed remote control, bed lowest was really high...the staff was really strick on I/O, Clinical chart. Sister was really relax. Know our cubical, so we decided to check out our patient, n guess wat, my patient from ward 41 cam here to 63 hahaha....after break, teacher give bck our book, cuase she got not enough time to go through the books with all of us, so ones she left, all of us started to count, guess wat, i already predicted tat my grade was C, almost cried to hear the result, n was really shocking to hear suhaimi got A but was a faluse alarm, sorry suhaimi, most of us drop seh, i dont know wat teacher see from me, but i really did my best seh, i need to brush up on my puntuality, if i got 4 tis time , i could get b or even high B, tat is wat i talking abt....haha...oh oh its getting late now, got to sleep...dont wan to b late for 1st day of school...hahax...Gd night all....

Going Out With fazli & Friends

Dear Diary,

2day me and fazli wanted to go gym together, but when we reach there, i saw there r lots of guys trainning, so i got scared to go in, due to shyness and still a bit scared of guys, so i told fazli next time je lah we go gym, now we go watch wayang...

We planed to watch The Seeker Or Stardust, then we went to the cinema late, so i told fazli, mayb 2day is not our day, so fazli's friends planned to go watch GAME PLAN, well first fazli dont like it but when the story got better n better, n all of us started laughing, exp me, haha, i was the loudest to laugh due to the funniest of the story part...haha...next day got oritaion in ward63, cant b there late, so instead of staying bck to eat with fazli's friends, me & fazli go home, told fazli next time, i promised i wake up early to go gym with u, n we booked a ticket to watch the movie The Seeker or Stardust. Ok lah, got to sleep now, Gd night...

Raya At Teacher & Friends House

My House

Nazurah & Me

Titi & Niza

Sabri-Aishah-Hidayah-Rusy

Atika&Me

Dear Diary,

Today is finally the day tat me n friends going out to go Raya, well as usual la, last min surly got people back out, cause of sick la, no money for travel la, lazy la. So who goes to Raya, Me, Aishah, Titi, Niza, Nazurah, Hidayah, Ruzy...we did have fun, but since its not really planned where to go so we took abt an hour to think of where to go, so called some our friends if we could go to thier house but then none of them could let us go thier house, so fed-up already, i told them, alah go to rumah kte kte jek, kan senang, as planned, we go from east to west...when come to my house, haizal called titi n ask if he could go raya with us, so was happy to have 1more person to join...from nazurah house, asked nazurah sister to drive us to ms rafika house, wah, i dont know need to pay, sob sob...its ok tat time, we dont know where to go, lastly, we went to Ms Rafika house, 1st really happy to see my bestie n zubai was there, n i was extremly happy to c teacher again, 2nd, really dissapointed with atika and zubai for not following, didn't talk much with them tat day, after at ms rafika house, some of us wanted to go to shikin house due to open house, n guess wat, all of us took taxi, wasting of money seh, so my duit raya for the day is gone...eat there, stay till 11.45pm then took TAXI again.

Lets See:
1-->From Nazurah house to Ms Rafika house ($4)
2-->From Bedok To Yishun Shikin House ($5)
3-->FromYishun To Woodlands Zubai & Me House ($5)

Expansive seh, eh, $10 is worth to go lots of house seh, Atika Zubai, 9trip of mrt n buses, its only $4 ok, u left with $6 in ur e-zlink card u know tat plus the few dollors in ur e-zlink, u want me to count for u kan, nah abik ni. I'm really upset with u girls seh, i dont really know ur reason for not going raya with us, me and aishah seh, kalau tak fikir kte, tak kisah la, aishah was really expexting u both to come, lucky i go, or else, die fed-up...serious la, the day b4, i was really happy tat zubai n atika pergi , n i dream abt both of u n aishah n me going raya...end up turn up the other way.

Dah la, cant reverse the time rite, if i reverse, it will still b the same...

Midnight Conversation...Hmm

Attachment in Ward 41 due today

Dear Diary,

Today is finally the day me & friends going to say goodbye to ward 41, cause we got to change ward, really going to miss all of them, n for this few i'm going to miss them so much, Nurse Mani, Nurse Zarina, Nurse Iliyana, Nurse Cally, Nurse May Yoke, Kak Ain, Mayb Nurse Mul...haha... without all of them, i'm guessing this attachment in ward 41 would really b boring and not really active, as u all can c, its mostly the Assistant Nurse tat i'm really close with, Staff Nurse is really buzy, so cant really talk to them or joke with them...but overall, they are really easy to communicate with, even with the one staff nurse i'm afraid of, tat is Staff Nurse Bavani...now to me she is ok, seen her smile, make me lost the fear of her...haha, going to miss working with her too...I really had lots of fun during my attachment in ward 41, wanted to take pictures with some of them but, they got meeting abt something, tat alone make me sad...but when they wave at me goodbye, really touch my heart, abt to cry, but cant haha...

Hopefully our final attachment at ward 63 would be the same or even better, really wanting to pass to get a B+ or even an A, dont wish to get C or D.

I still wonder why my friends go home so early, tat is 2.45pm, n further more, they did not inform me they going hm, or else i will like alone seh in front the only morning shift, thanks to doris or grace tat, she told me tat the morning shift students r going home already, so i delay abt of my time, to say my last words to some of the staff, pick up my bag, sign out, say goodbye to my patient. Finally i'm out of the ward at 2.50pm, thinking my friends would wait for me, but i was wrong, they went first, but lucky for me i got to catch up with them at the bus stop, thank you buses for delaying my friends time, so i could go home with them. Syafiqah bus*** seh, told her, sedih seh korang tinggal kan kte sorg dlm ward, then she say abih sedih, pastu tulis dlm blog then cry, wah, heart pain seh dengar, kte tak layan die sgt, then suhaimi called me to sit beside him, told him the same thing but his reaction was a bit nice but i forget wat he said...hmmm...never mind tat, in bus suhaimi talk to me, asking me to tell him wats my problem but i keep on closing my mouth meaning not telling, sorry for tat. If i talk abt it, i will cry, so by not saying my problems out, would calm me down...watch him play PSP, got on train, listen to music, he n his PSP all the way, haha...reach hm, bath, take a nap, at night mum's cousin came to my house, so got to clean up b4 they reach, then now updating my blog...

I guess, 2days blog is really long, so if u read it, thank you...really took a lot of courage to write something tis long...hopefully i could express my feelings in tis blog, or to someone...ok then, want to go do something else, then i go to bed...oh ya, 2moro i'm going raya with some of my friends, wish my bestie n my friends to b there....ok tat all, buh-bye

Sign Off

Calling Myself BabyPrinceSabri

BabyPrinceSabri

Dear Diary,

I'm calling myself BabyPrinceSabri, every word have a meaning n also included in me...try and guess wat is Baby mean? Prince mean? Sabri mean? not sure, ok never mind, i let u know ok. Baby means Needs Attention, Manje, Trust people Easily,Easily Hurt by harsh words & love people who is nice, Prince mean Wan people to respect, wan to achieve high expatiation, wan his wish to b approved & a bit demanding, Sabri means patients, concern abt the person he loves, hate to b alone, hide emotions & 50% Open-minded. What ever i wrote its true, if u read carefully and look at me and u will c, its the same...if u c its not the same, i guess u r not looking deeper or u just dont bother to c it...

I myself dont know why i got tis feelings....