i almost cry

Dear Diary,

NGT Feeding is tough man, i can't remember the steps fast, n the timming to the pharse test is nearing that is tis sat 28/07/2007, scared leh, i almost cried after atika left, cause i'm like alone there, she is the only one close to me, she left, so i felt scared all the way. I did not do the NGT insertion, due to totally nervous, my hand froze and i felt alone...i told teacher i do next day la...oh btw, m i being too manje? why i always need my frends to b there if i'm doing something? why i'm not independent, i'm always scared nervous...but swear to god when atika left, i almost cry, but i try to maintain, i know atika got lots of frens n got promised with her frens, so i tried to understand...

so atika, if u got something on just go ok, i will not cry, try to b independent. :'(

Dear Diary,

Today was HAPPENING...my dad bring me and my little brother to was u know wat?
HARRY POTTER...Its was so exciting and fun, i did not expect the show to b so much fun...
lots of using msgic and wow first time ever seeing Dumbledore to use such powerful magic.
And wow prof umbrige was actually a horrible person, n i thought she was kind and helpful.
Such power was incredible...harry,hermione, ron, neville, ginny, the weasly twins and luna...
team up to find the place where voldermot was hiding...ok lah that all i can tell, later peolpe
dont wan to watch the movie after listenning to my story...lol..like real people wan to read my
story...hehe...ok bye bye and o ya...i ask my dad to buy me some plain t-shirt and i will
use my my slingleton top of the t-shirt....hehe i wil put in the picturesss...ok

Dear Diary,

Hmm...so far school was fun and kinda better then going to attachment...u wan to know to day i guess was the most fun day ever...well although morning was really boring and sleepy but afternoon came, the lesson start to get better, n CMS (Communication Skills) i thought i can't speck at the from of the class but u know wat i felt scared and when i go up to the front and i kept quiet and i like stare at my classmate then when everyone is settle my teacher told me to begin, oh ya i was not ready but since everyone ask me to come up wat to do just stand and read and answer a few qestions...when i open my mouth to speck and i was like shock of my life that i could not belive that i can speck so loud and clearly and i was not really nervous...if felt fun and really enjoy it so much...but this was only the beginning...hehe...k lah got to do some last touch up on the face and on the computer then get ready to go bed...C ya...

Dear Diary,

Today i felt scared to bring my new bag the one arm sling one...
because i scared it will not suit me or even my friends might laugh...
but i force myslef to use it and i did, i felt good using it...
in my whole life i never ever use that kind of bag...i felt funny but fun
i see others keep on looking at me but i had learn to ignore them...love it
at last i tried somthing new from b4...

Now i'm going to try wearing a nice slinglet outside a t-shirt...
Hmm...i wonder how do i look...nice or ugly, if ugly then i stop using them la
but now haven try also...hehe...k lah if theres anything more to come,
i will sure to write again...that for reading...bye!!!

Dear Diary,

I really had much fun with my family but....
what abt my frens? I always wanted to cry everytime when finish school...
I got this feeling that i only frens in school but outside...
No one...But frens forgive me but its only a Feelings, i wan to go out...
of house but no one is going out with me...
so i will just sit at home and do nothing...
and sometimes i will cry in my room thinking did i do something wrong to my frens
untill none of them ask me out?

Stress la sometimes...hopely one day all tis will work out ...
Waiting for the day to come...