It just not fair

Dear diary,

During my nursing days, i always miss the time to meet my dad, my lil bro and sis always have the extra time to meet him, i could meet him during my sat and sun, but its just too tiring for me.

And now, i finally had lots of time to meet my dad, tats why i went to my cousin's house and sleepover for abt 1week, and i wan to wait to see my dad and mayb he too could sleepover too, his off days is on thrs, fri and sat, so from mon to wed, i keep on wishing tat dad could have time to see us there...and yes he did come but for only a few hours, he didnt even take us out...ok, i dont mind, cuz i know he got tis small buisness to took care of..

The thing tat totally had my eyes watery is yesterday.
Yesterday was the day i got so jealous of my cousin, cuz they had both their parents beside them, they had fun together, laughing all the way, me and brother try to blend in...as for my bro, he is still thinking of playing, so he wont really feel it but i felt tis thing tat i need at least a parent to b beside, although when me dad bro and sis go out together, although i dont really ask for much things, i could feel at least there is someone to take care of us, b there for us, but for yesterday, totally nothing...told one of my cousin abt it, she can do nothing but just keep me company...i cried silently when on the way bck to my cousin's place by car, when reach, i try to calm myself down my walking a bit further from home, taking in fresh air, and i silently got home take a cold bath, eat dinner, and sleep, all the way, i was silent, unless i need something badly...


-Notes-
Ayah, kenape ayah selalu mcm blame along pasal along buzy dgn sch and takde mase untok jumpe ayah? along memang buzy dgn sch, and holiday along tak same mcm adik2, skrg, along dah holiday, and holiday along at least leh same2 dgn andi, kali ni along memang doa2, ayah dpt dtg sini sampai mlm, atau ajak kte keluar, tapi ayah cume dpt dtg untok tunjokkan barang2 buisness, and dlm berape jam je, ayah nak kene alik, along dah lame tak jumpe ayah, and ni yg ayah buat kat along? Ape? along dah besar tak perlukan seorg ayah?? Ayah, ni kali yg hampir2 penghabisan untok along manje2 dgn ayah, dpt jumpe ayah, leh suruh ayah belikan barang, leh ketawe2 dgn ayah, leh have lots of time together, tapi ayah just tak fikir...next year, along dah mula kerja and ns, ns je dah 2 tahun along tak leh keluar singapore, selepas ns, along dah umur 21 and mesti along dah berkerja, dah de duit sendiri

Ni dah masuk 5tahun ayah and ibu dah tak tinggal same2, baru sekarang along rase ke hilangan seorg ayah, and ayah dahde fam baru, lupe along and adik2....

Why when a father/husband not staying together with family, and had a new family, will forget abt the importants abt the old family? Why???

I WANT SOMEONE TO ANSWER FOR ME TAT, EXPLAIN TO ME IN DETAILS!!! MAKE ME UNDERSTAND!!!!

X-Mas

Merry Christmas To all my Friends

May You Get All The Present You Wanted...

The Picture U Seen Is Especially For You....Enjoy

PS: Bob, so sorry, tak dpt ikut gi ur adventure, when i heard ur schedule, im sure its going to b fun. and to shikin, girl im sorry kalu tk ikut g ur chalet cuz our group ramai tk g, if i were there, atika and bf will b there and i will b alone, for sure u b attending to ur family kan...k lah, anyway, gd luck friends and happy x-mas to u...

In The Middle OF Two Sides

Dear Diary,

Now im currently at my cousin's house tat is in JB, its already abt 3days and tis coming Friday i also have a outing with my friends and just yesterday night i received a msg from a friend, inviting me to go to her chalet...

The Problem:
For so long, i been waiting to go n have fun with my cousins and i so miss them so much, and this friday is so called the last day for us friends to gather and celebrate eve of a friend birthday and also an outing la, and a friend sms me saying if i wan to go to her chalet with my group of friends...okok, so its like, if i stay at my cousin's house, i will miss my so call the final day for me to meet my friends, and if i go to my friend's outing, i will missed the time of spending the time with my cousins...i wan to spend both of my time with both sides but my cousins is staying in JB, so if i go singapore, it take long time to go bck to JB...

Trying to Solve it:
I ask a friend of mine to ask how many of us going to my friend's chalet and then i decide if i wan to follow friends or family, so tomoro i ask her how many going and then next day i go bck SG...

Hope there is an answer to my confusion....love both sides....

Outing With Mum

Dear Diary,

Suppose to b a family outing today but, sister dont like the idea of going adventure and learn abt nature at is in Sungai Buloh, and lil bro is not feeling well, so he have to stay hm and rest, i also have second thought of going...

but i scared my mum would think bad abt us, so i just sacifice my time and follow her to tis outting, i thought its going to b boring, so i brought myself my camera and water bottle...

reach there abt 9am and go visit the museum there and wait for out instruster...its a good outing though cuz i learn lots of stuff, like which direction of the water go meanning the water is rising or dropping, and the name and use of the plants there...haha...its sort of fun, took lots of photos.

reach hm abt 1pm and i sleep till late afternoon...will update the pictures soon..

Social Night!!!

Dear Diary,

Finally the day i had been waiting for, SOCIAL NIGHT...haha, i spent lots of my money just to find the right outfit for myself...and today i finally get to show it to everyone, hehe, got lots of comment on my outfit...hehe.

When i look at my seroundings, i saw more of April intake then January intake, hmm cant blame them cuz we from attachment and just having our holidays, and going bck to school is so tiring cuz its far...

hmm the social night event is not so bad la, teachers perform as students, its was helarious, haha, there is the Prom king and queen, congratz to both of them, sadly its from april intake...haha, and finally its the DANCE FLOOR...tis part its almost like a CLUB...haha, but its only avaliable for nursing students and teachers...the songs kinda sux and JANUARY INTAKE rule the dance floor, you go january...

Lasly, we go sheesha, haha, my extremly 1st time, took lots of photos, did have fun and lastly we eat our dinner, haha, got home almost 12.30+...

I miss today and i wish my CP friends could come too, im sure they could dress up really pretty and handsome...miss them, too...

Pictures to Social Night http://flowerymagic.multiply.com

Love My LAst Day OF Attacment

Dear Diary,

My LAst Day Of Attachment was awesome, im loving it so much eh...let the pictures talk ok, im too happy to explain every single details...

more pictures at my multiply http://flowerymagic.multiply.com

Theme Park With Family

Dear Diary,

Right after the marathon, i have to go to escape theme park with family, was really excited but the thing tat really making me weak is tat i got a sudden diarrhea, i was all the way going toilet non-stop and i felt really thirsty, my lips r dry, im guessing the food given during the marathon made me feeling dizzy, tired and diarrhea...i pity my sibling cuz they wan to play the games but i wasnt there to play with them...i took less picture but although i didnt play the games, i did take a good photos..i can still smile but really its mostly for pictures...hahahaha...

more photos at my multiply...http://flowerymagic.multiply.com