Exploring....

Dear Diary,

Planned to go out with fazli n hadri, was excited cuz both of them got nothing to do, so once out with them means snapping!!...then guess wat, shaiful wanted to come, i felt a bit scared for him if he would feel felt out or mayb fazli n hadri didnt like him or sumthing...

Surprizingly 3 of them click well, but i felt all shy shy when he is around, haha natural effect ok...then all of us start to have clicking section, since we got more then 3person in a group, so he become the "photographer" haha, sorry hun, im still the best photograher they got...haha!! then its time for me to go, cuz im booking in today...was really2 sad as i have to go but its ok,next week still a week we could meet...its a great day...but booking in is a pain...haiz...

MEDIC!!!

Dear Diary,

I have been posted to become a medic...wooohooo...now im in nee soon camp taking my medic course...when i c all the subjects i felt realive cuz im learning wat i always like...talking abt new friends, i felt like im welcomed without getting thoughts of me being gay or anything else...n NEW thing, i get to pray, 1 point cuz i got friends who prays too, another one i dont feel embaressed cuz the bunk is half malay another half chinese, unlike my other camp, 1/4 is malay the rest chinese...

Worst, we never kena fucked by the sergents n worst! we got no PT other then run, so we have to train ourself at night...argh i gain 2kg after 1week...omg!!! i dont wan to be fat again...!!

Thats all i could tell u guys...please ppl, pray hard for me to exel in my medic course...tis time i will put in more effort in my studies...talk to u all soon...buhbye..

PS: Happy 1month Anniversay...=)

A Day At BookFest Is A Blast...

I kinda forget wat happen tis day, but i know tis day is a blast...meeting up anis n his bf n get to C HADY MIRZA...

Im Touched...

Dear Diary,

Its friday, was suppose to teman kak su to hospital but didnt cuz it was postpone...then dad called as he wanted to meet us all, felt real happy as he wanted to meet us, we swenson...weee...im real touched by the cake...love it...bt sadly we cant finish it all cuz we didnt know it the cake was real...haha...

wanted to take picture with anis farhana, our cutest sister, but she was too shy with us, cuz for so long we nvr meet, cant blame us for tat cuz she leave extreme far from us...there u go a picture of her taken by dad, i tell u guys, she will grow up independly n i hope not too fierce, scary...
Since, dad had to head off early cuz of company dinner, so i head off too, to kak su house...since i promise her all of my family songs...haha, then give her all, help her with some of the computer things, n she bought g-force, wooohooo...loving it...haha...

Fazli came along, we so long never meet, then kak su bring out MAGNUM ice-cream, faz didnt eat as he got an ulcer in his mouth for eating too much chocolate...haha sad...time goes fast as we r having so much fun...time to go home...

He Is My Bestie...

He Is Sexy While Im Hot...

Dear Diary,

It Had been a while since i meet hadri...miss him so badly...i miss taking photos with him...well, since today i wasnt in the mood, i had pms, i bought lots of junk food n best, im already sick, n yet i take things which not suppose to take...i wore the wrong outfit for a cam-whoring...since i wore the wrong outfit, hadri said i could bcome a great photographer...haha, love to b tat too...

After lot of photo taking at the garden we found at suntec city, we head towards the waterfall, i tell u its beautiful, but when i c the water flowing, i felt like crying, i dont know why...again we take lots of photos, i make a smile, cuz i know when i smile, its nvr fake...but behiend the smile, im falling apart...around 8pm we took train str8 hm, hadri, thanks for listenning to wat i wan to say, cuz its really difficult for me to talk abt problem, i usually write my problems..

Long sleave is a cover for me if i do sumthing stupid...i just wan to say sorry, sooner or later, i will hurt someone, im not prepared but i have to do it...one by one problem came to me, im all stressed up...i will always love you...

Im Sick but still on for SHOPPING!!

Dear Diary,

Been a long time in camp n i had been waiting to spent my money, n yeah today i went out with mum, hehe she bought for me face wash which i love last year...n weee!! thank god, there is promotion if not she wont buy for me...hehe...

Premier is the best product...you bet

Since my intension for today is to by shoe n hat, since i cant find the hat tat i wanted, so i bought two bag to replace it, haha!!thought of buying chales&keith wallet, but mayb i buy it when i have my salary again...haha, now all not avaliable...haha!!

JeepMann Has become my fav shoe brand while Square had been my fav Bag brand...^_^

B4 going hm, i treat my mum to swenson, hehe onces in every two to three months i would treat mum to an expansive dinner...well worth the while...haha, love her for always b there for me, i promise her, if i ever have enough money, i will buy for her chales&keith wallet, even my mum said she love it...

PS: I'm Sick, hope i could recover by tomoro...

Boring Day..

My Little Brother...Love him...

Dear Diary,

Its just only 1day after my POP...i felt really sad as father & Sister unable to come to my P.O.P, both of them were my 2nd choise after my mum, but none came, so brother tag along...i really owe my thanks to my bro cuz he, other then my mum, dont mind attending to things tat is important like my POP...bro also send me to my VERY 1st endlistment day...

My Sis reason for not attending i could understand, cuz she for so long nvr meet my cousins n grandmum, but i cant understand my dad's reason, he could debate to his manager tat he is attending to something important tat involve his son in it but he didnt, i just wan to know the actual reason, is it cuz of meeting mum? or is it dont wan to hurt step-mum's feeling? both of them ARE my mum anyways...further more, i dont think my dad ever seen me wearing Army Uniform, when i got the news tat dad isnt comming, i cried real bad tat night...but i can't do anything...Told mum abt it, she understand so much how i felt...

Enough of sadness, today been a boring day as i didnt do anything other then eat n sleep...Nizam showed me 2 dance video, i tell u they dance very nice, one of the video got him inside, i was smiling widely cuz he is inside, tat time he is really skinny...now hehehe...i will zip my mouth...hehe...

here you go...


His group starts at 4.21, he is the one tat is wearing nike shoe...*fainting*


This is his friends' group...they dance AWESOME!!!....love it...

POP OH...!!!

This two person will nvr fail to b beside me...Love you...

Platoon Sargent Alex & Sargent Jackson(My Section Commander)

Sir Willson

RSM Amran & Cpt Dyson

Dear Diary,

I just had my POP tis morning, was a memorable time...but its kinda embarrassing as the speaker spoil when we hentak kaki n lost steps...but so far was fun...love it...took lots photos, but sadly not all of them inside my pictures...

Lets talk abt wat i have been doing in camp for last week...we had RECRUITS NIGHT & 16CLICK, tis week we slack alot, but the POP rehearsal make us shag but its worth it...

Recruits night was amazing, lots of hot chicks n handsome dudes come perform for us...n tis time im not lieing abt the hot n handsome, they r really are...then there is almost a "Gang fight" during the night...haha cuz Charlie acted like mat rep n Alpha&Bravo cant take it, so tis wat happen...
Charlie Love to say tis, A-Ah-A-Ah Charlie Kia...then Bravo&Alpha Uses whistle "Toot-Toot-Toottoottoot-toottoottoottoot-BOTOH" & when Charlie do it again, Alpha&Bravo shouted A-Ah-A-Ah A..ya...O...ah...Infantry...ah(Its part of a Army Song)...Was funny, i can see tat the Charlies is really angry...haha..tats was for Recruits night...

Just letting u guys know, my batch is the 1st batch to do 16click(16km)...how lucky for us...just by doing 16click, all of us is half dead, i wonder if they add 8click more to complete 24click, i wonder wat would happen...haha...!! but those ppl who done 24click, well-done, i want to have the chance to walk 24click, but im lucky enough to just finish my 16click...during the 16click, my friends r the one tat keep on singing to make the mood wonders, last 4click, their voice got softer n softer but they didn't stop, they keep on continue...finish 16click, we watch a short video of the whole battalion since PIP till BMT...nice...

The Pictures will b updated asap...so no worries...

PS: Patience always lead to good things...

Two New Outfit...

Bought...

Given...by him

Dear Diary,

Today went out with nizam...was excited to b with him...n i also would like to thank him to take his time for me today, as im going to buy a polo-t for my up comming recruits night...the shirt was nice n kinda cheap...weee...he also gave me a new urban male singlet...aww...so sweet but hunn, i know the prize...wakakaka.....

PS: LOVE YOU...

Feild Camp is OVER..

Dear Diary,

Finally feild camp is over, just being in a forest for a total of 5days n without phone, i felt like crying, but i didnt, i endure it all, since im not allowed to type in wat i have been doing during my feild camp, i will just say i have just learned, being a survivor is a tough job, i learn how to b independent, more discipline, n my behavior from being shy shy is almost gone, im kinda open now with guys around...kinda love myself now, but there is still here n there tat i still need to improve...

OH! i was nicknamed "Opera Dancer" by my Sargent...but now im ok with it, cuz its just a nick...=)

Just to let u all know, i almost cried when i hug my mum n hadri, cuz i was in the feild without feeling someone is with me, but everytime i sleep, i pray to god to protect me...seriously, i never ever wan to go out-feild again...its torturing me mentally n physically...good news for all of u n myself...POP IS JUST 6DAYS AHEAD!!!!! I hope tis week wont have much of the trainning other then rehersal for pop....

PS: Pop = Post Out Parade...

I will never let u go...*heart*

Selamat Hari Raya Haji!!!

Dear Diary,

It Hari raya haji, im kinda sad too as im not able to go out to jb to celebrate the 2nd raya with family...mum work afternoon shift, grandmum later at night will b going to kampong, sister sure go out, brother go jb...im literally sad...its ok, soon enough all tis will b gone, just tahan for 2more weeks...oh just letting all of u know, next week i will b going to tekong for my out feild, im scared n bad new, im sure the connection from there to singapore will b using malaysia line, WTH, i cant even msg my mum...n we also need to learn how to dig our own grave, lets hope outfeild will b a fun n enjoyable time...

I have a gay friend who need advice from me, i also dont know how to answer...he dont mind me typing tis in my blog cuz he wan to know how to solve it...He currenty just contacted with a guy friend, both of them fall in love at 1st sight...my friend is a newbie in relationship, he dont know how to handle a relationship...wat do he have to do 1st?

PS: Love you....

my new friend...hehe...*wink*

Dear Diary,

Let me intro u to my new friend, his name is NIZAM!!, i met him just now...he is very sweet, cute n very humble, guess his age? younger then me? nope, he is 21 tis year...weeee...kinda miss hanging out with him...i hope my next book out i could meet him again...i dont have much time to tell u guys more abt him...mayb next time ok....buhbye...XOXO

MOVIE!!!

Dear Diary,

Went out with kak su, fazli hadri n kak hos...we go watch movie, we watch movie 2012, kinda hate the movie, it talking abt dooms day n got a new world...wth...i totally dont understand...then they build tis so call underwater spaceship tat can last for long...wth...argh hate it, but was exciting...


after dat, kak su n kak hos have to leave for a while as they r late for a dinner tat is near by...so me hadri n faz,go out get ourself something to eat, then we go take lots of photos...hehe...meet kak su n kak hos in abt 1hr later...then went kak su house as she wan the photos n then we rush home as scared last train will leave us...hehe...tats all i got for today...buhbye...!!!

Exciting Night W Love Birds...

Dear Diary,

Aishah ask me out today, so ask zubai along, n aishah wanted to bring a special someone, his name is ALWI!! plan for today is to shop shop n watch paranormal activity....

But then, its kinda too late for it cuz the last few sits r horrible, cuz the 4 sits r actually being separated, so we didnt watch movie, sry zubai, i didnt get to shop also cuz kinda felt if im not equal with zubai, its kinda unfair for her...so aishah got her things, since we cant get to watch movie, we sit at coffee bean, n thank god i brought my camera along as we could take lots n lots of pictures...

Then its abt 11pm, so we took the train, took pictures in train too, i tell u, ppl r like literally staring at us, but who cares rite, since we r in a group i dont feel shy to keep on snapping...took more pictures, since its always alwi n aishah in the picture, once they alight, me n zubai go crazy n take more pictures to equal with alwi n aishah...haha...lau tk my cam is full of their photos, haha!!! but serious aishah, u got a great guy there...do take care of him, ALWI!!! u dont go around bully my big sister ok, take care of her too alright...

Soon we will meet again, who knows next time with the whole group, argh i cant wait....!!
XOXO...love you guys...aishah ask me out again ok...then we plan...muahahaha...

Dikir Barat...

Dear Diary,

It has been so long since i met my bestie, i missed her so much, i felt like crying when i c her, well i cant as she had 2 girlfriends next to her, so huged her, talk talk to her n girlfriends, then i think abt 45mins of waiting then we got to go inside, atika paid so expansive n the condition of the hall isnt tat great, no food, no aircorn, n the chairs wasnt decorated, but the performance was great...love it, atika bf n atika's friend bro was in also...

Support them all the way, was an awesome performances, then its abt 2.00pm, thinking its late for me to stay there, cuz i need to buy more things for my army life...im sorry if i didnt get to finish watching dikir barat with u bestie, but its ok, next outting mayb its on me, i say mayb eh...haha!! bought the staff n thank god i got home on time to prepare my items for tonight book in...ok then its the end of this entry....

XOXO...bestie i love you....