Stress Week

Dear Diary,

I had a very stress week, kinda missed my mum so much as i didnt get to call her for three days, not to say only her but some of my friends i use to call...live firing was fun, n its seriously fun as get to try out a real weapon with real bullet...then everything got worst as on wed a guy surrender a bullet shell to our captain, from there the suffering starts, we open pasar malam two times in a day, its very tiring, n for 3 conservative days, i cant use the phone as we got only 15mins to settle ourself, like showering, prepare for next day, n for tat three days, i got scolding from my Sargent tat i use my phone like 5mins after lights off n all i could do is msg...

Then book out, i felt abit relieve tat im going to meet my mum as i thought she is off from work today, but i was wrong, when i came home, mum was already off for work n she is in the afternoon shift...i went in my room tat is dam dam messy n then i called my mum n cried till i felt asleep...

Woke up, use the comp n guess wat i got a reply from KHAIRUL!!, was just thinking of forgive n forget abt him, but he shoot me bck bad, he said i dont understand his condition right now, n his bf does, how would i know if he never talk to me...n he say further tis question,One more thing sabri i really want to ask you this question...And please be honest with me...Do you like or love me? I'm asking you because that something about you wanting to be with me and i'm curious... wat would u react if the person just pop a question like tat?? im a BISEXUAL DAMMIT!! n does tat mean i have to love u? n if a friend let go of a friend, wat do they do? try to pull him/her bck m i right...walau, ask such a stupid questions...

I had enough of the stress for today, tomoro im meeting faz n kak su, feeling excited....!!!

Live Firing

Dear Diary,

Im bck hm, but sadly i need to go bck to camp soon as i got live firing tomoro n monday, dam my sunday is burn, omg, i really hate it...i dont have much things to say cuz im seriously bored of going bck camp n burn my sunday just like tat...hope i just have fun during the live firing so i dont feel the sunday pass by, ppl please wish me luck n pray i got marksman points, weeee....tats wat im aiming....LIVE FIRING HERE I COME...girlfriends, do msg me once in a while, cuz im bored here n dont know weather u girls r free to msg or call...love u all, buhbye....

XOXO

Lost My Confidences...

Hey guys, yesterday i didnt have any plan, so thought of sitting at hm n watch some movies, then hadri nudge me through msn tat nizar ask him out, n he wishes tat he got my camera, i was about to say, "can i come along?" but i didnt, then surprisingly he ask me to join them...haha, all i could say is yes cuz i also wan to meet tis guy cuz hadri had been always talking abt him...

Well, to my point of view, he is a REALLY nice guy, he dont feel shy just by sitting next to us cuz most of the guys i met do, he is also protective abt his friends, he love sports i think, n when comes to photography, i must say he is very good at finding the best views, but he really sux in taking model photos...wakakaka...as a person i must say he is CUTE but his personality make him HOT...would love to hang out with him more, if hadri approves it...haha!!!

Sometimes i wish i could have hadri personality, cuz he is so sure of himself n his confidence lvl is so high n he dont care wat ppl say abt him, he will just shoot it bck at them, whenever he got guys friends, his guys friends is the type tat dont bother abt his appearance, when i look at myself, i got the looks, nice personality n everything but my confidence lvl will just drop when something just tear it apart, tat is "a pimple like thing at the bck of my neck n its disgusting to look at", everywhere i go ppl will stare at me, how i sometimes wish to hear wat ppl is saying abt me inside their mind...n most of my guy friends will keep on telling me to b tough n b the man, i cant always b the man, i need to b me n my personality...mayb my appearance n personality doesnt match well...i hope my confidence come bck to me soon...

sry hadri i didnt tell u wat is in my mind yesterday, i cried right after web-camming with him...XOXO...mucks

Time for me to finish packing with my items, booking in today, c u guys when i c u guys...

Dinosaur In The house

I would like to wish all my indian friends a HAPPY DEEPAVALI...as for me im kinda bored at home...so i ask hadri out as he is the only person who is available...but b4 all tat, i followed mum to NTUC to buy some of her cooking stuff, then reach hm, she said the repair refrigerator man will b arriving soon, as i just open my comp to use it, the uncle was already inside the house preparing his items, so i help mum to take out all the stuff from the fridge so the uncle could repair n c wat is the problem...

Everything inside was dirty, so help mum to clean it, n guess wat, its all pure white right after i clean it, the uncle then pull out the fridge to off the plug, then it was extremely dusty, so did the same thing, i clean n clean2, as u can c on top, tat is wat i saw, its disgusting i know, sry but i got to show, kinda interesting to have a dinosaur in the house...i didnt clean it away, but i ask mum to do it, it was really disgusting as my whole body is having goosebumps, after mum clean it up, the uncle did everything he had to do, bla bla bla, repaired finish, mum go work, so i help abit to put some items bck in the fridge...then wait for hadri, cuz he is going out with me, my mission is to buy jeans, belt, cap, bracelet n shoe...

Around 7+ hadri reach CWP, so we start the mission, i was kinda out of budgets but its for a long term, so i dont mind buying it now, i bought jean n shoes, both was kinda expansive but worth it, the shoe is JEEPMANN brand, while the jean is lee coper, need one more jeans, belt, n bracelet but got not much time to buys, so i leave it till next time...

Just to let u know, a MINAH RAP is scared of a model like me...the story is like tis, me n hadri was browsing through the levi jeans, i was facing out while hadri was facing me, i saw a minah with blonde hair n thick make up, he face was like shock n facing hadri n said "OMG" softly, thinking i didnt hear...then hadri ask me, did u heard wat she say? i said no n why, he said she talk softly to her bf "tempat ni mane ade size die", my blood boil so hot, so i told lets go, i saw the minah choosing a clothes, she look at me, then i give her one time laser beam stare EYE to EYE, then i "Jeling" her, n i called hadri excitedly to a small corner, i turn n i didnt even c the minah, she was gone just like tat...told hadri i did something for him...

Hadri, dont get hurt with tis type of ppl, they might think they r the best but they r actually not, n with me n fazli around, they wont dare to do it again...even without fazli, my stare will just make them chicken away...i will always b by urside girl...XOXO

New Moon

Well as u can see, i book out today, i know wat u guys thinking, why im out of camp on a weekdays, as u can see sat is Deepavali, so all of us got 2days off...wah im so glad, finally im going to go out with friends, or mayb sit at hm doing nothing, i wish tat wont happen...

I know some of u might b tempted to know wat im up to during my camp, well, i wont say is every details, the most important thing is tis week i got to hold on to a REAL REAL weapon, n i learn lots of things abt the weapon, like how to hold the weapon, how to strip the weapon, how to aim at enemies n etc, next week i will b having LIFE!! firing, kinda excited but scared if i dont know how to handle it...lets keep the tension next week, tis week im going to so enjoy myself...

You guys wan to know something? NEW MOON IS OUT!! when i saw the trailer i was like OMG!OMG! it will b out tis coming November, so wanting to watch it, but sadly i have not finish reading the book twilight..

U wan to know something more exciting, when i 1st saw tis guy (picture above), i thought he is a new guy in new moon as he is so FREAKING HOT!! he is even hotter then Edward Cullen, then when i slowly go through the New Moon trailer, i got the shock of my life tat he was one of the guys playing in twilight n tat time he got a very long hair...omg i can just stare at his picture without even blink...Tats all i got for u guys...happy viewing the trailer im going to show u below...XOXO


The Twilight Saga: New Moon Trailer in HD

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The Twilight Saga: New Moon 'Meet Jacob Black' Preview in HD

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Hot Right?? I know....*sluring*

Modeling side...

My Modeling side, today met hadri, we plan to take lots of pictures of our modeling side, well he the model, while im a photographer, then he then ask me to pose while he take pictures, n bam, as u can c up there, one of my best picture in my modeling album...was fun taking photos n also become the model, he said i did well in modeling, i just need more confidants in myself, 1 think tat dont make me, me, is tat at the bck of my neck got a lots of dark pimple like thing, its kinda disgusting, got meds, so im going to apply it everyday till its ok...if its not cleared, i have to go to skin clinic in ttsh to get it remove..im so scared...

While taking photos, fazli called as he finish the outting with his frens, go we meet him otw bck hm, took more pictures but we take a really quick one as my cam batt is going flat...hahaha...our best photo is on top, editted by me...wakakaka...lastly went to visit my grandmum at auntie house...hadri, lets go modeling again, next time go with fazli too, so double the fun...XOXO

Lastly, bought 3 new shirt for myself, so long i never spent money on my own clothes n jeans, since i look good in sleeveless, i decided to buy 2 design of sleeveless to look cool n a short sleeve, all of them is can say tight fit...next im buying jeans, then hat then belt...cant wait...tats all i got for u ppl buhbye...taking care...buhbye

Raya With Kak Su

Dear Diary,

Plan with kak su tat i n fazli would go raya with her...so ya we did, although its only 1 house but it worth my time...as u can c also, today is the day i book in...did have fun together with her, disturb each other, then in the end we apologize...haha...im so lucky to have a big sister like her...

Its about time for me to go home as i have not pck my items yet...kinda annoying tat i have to book in...argh...its ok as long i got have phone n can go hm every week, im happy enough...

Reach home, straight away i go pack my items, my clothes, uh i forgot fazli came to my house, n as u can c from above, he used my camera to take lots of his pictures...haha...but its ok, as long he isnt bored while waiting in my house...was kinda worried as mum have not reach home n its 6pm...

Yeah...call her a few times, then she answer...then she say she will reach woodlands around 6.30pm, so i told her why not u meet us there at khatib, she say she lazy to wait, so she walk around 1st, fazli also follow us to hanta me to camp, awww so sweet...then reach camp abt 7.45pm, thought i was late, but weee, i was early...tats all i have for today..c u all...XOXO