Thursday, April 30, 2009

I got a new phone!!

KONECIWA!!!!!


Its the 30th April, n its my 2nd medical check up...too bad, tis time i dont wan to bring dad, so i bring mum, scared got lost, me n mum took taxi to CMPB, if for those who dont know wat is CMPB, its for ppl to get medical check up n updation, i think...hahaha!! then, got there late by 5mins, i tried to make friends but mayb i was too shy to talk, i ask one of tis guy n just plain ask tis question "kite tulis cume 2 pages kan?" then he just nod...

then proseed to urine n blood taking place, the blood taking part, i hate the most, cuz the person i think is new, cuz he ask a senior where is my vein, im so huge n u cant see my vein, then he poke, got a bit of blood, then he move2 the needle n ask if im in pain, 1st time wasn't, but i felt burning sensation, 2nd time he move i say quietly, ouch...haha, then he say is it very pain? i say no, lol trying to prove to ppl tat i can tahan, but actually i can cry la sia, so pain, n he put the paster also not at the place. btw the officer there i thought its like 30+ but when ic his name tag got ic, he is only 21 la sia! cute also...hehe...Hearing Test is next...well, easy la, the soft pitch sound...Then Eye Test, n my 1st time say 2 famale helping out, lucky for me, i wore my glasses tat day, cuz 2boys i saw, they need to go behiend to test out their eye, like exp u know when u wan to make glasses, they use tis weird glasses on u n put in fames to c weather u could see clearly or not...next is Chest X-ray, 1st time i actually open my shirt infront of a guy, usually i was do dam shy, then i just go in n they ask to put my check on tis board, procees to dental check up, another female helper, n when she say, slightly corrupted, i was like, omg, my is teeth going to drop off?? n she didnt even say anything to me seh...lastly, the part i dont like most, its the ECG, BP, Height&Weight, n Private Area gone in, n saw half nacked ppl sitting, take my locker key, took off my shirt n wore my shorts, go ECG 1st, the incharge ask to read the instructions, n i do wat ever it say, n i ask is there anything else i need to fill in, he shake his head n ask me to lay down, i did, lucky dis time my body wasnt tat red, haha, the height n weight, n guess wat, my weight was 75! i was like impossible, n my height is 177!! omg i got taller!! then took my BP, n they way the person tell me to wait for my turn to Q, was like he is talking to a girl, im like OK...haha...so i sit n wait, ignoring ppl around me, n teet, my turn to go in, saw the incharge, i give him my chart, n he ask me to pull donw my pants, he look once, my face almost red...i was like sial la...n he ask me to call someone at the counter name James, so i say "Err is there anyone name James??" a cute guy say ya, i say the person incharge call for u, so he gone in, n i go in la, james took my chart n i was like sitting down on a chair, when i ask told to go out, he open the door asking me to go out n wisper in my ear to wear bck my clothes n return the keys, i was like WEEEE~~ in my lala land already....HAHAA!!! was otw bck to change my clothes, my eye suddenly got contact with tis 3 guys, was staring at me n was wispering with each other, my locker was bhiend them, so i open my locker, n one guy sang a song "Oh OH, kamu ketahuan" tat song, i was like WTH, n while i was changing, one chinese guy was like staring at me very sharply, i saw him n turn away from him, omg scary, as if he wan to eat me...wore everything n go to front fow to sit n wait for my name to b called, the cute guy suddenly call me "muhammad sabri" i was like yes, he say to me in a sweet say, go to next station to do the computer thingy, i was like WEEEE~~~ hehe, go to the computer station, its abt IQ, then he say no need to do as i done already, he direct me to do staight to the 1st counter to give the pink form, he also talk to me sweetly, haha...was confused will ppl there, why most of the time ppl is being sweet to me? its a medical check up ppl...

Meet Mum, outside waiting for me, she say, so fast, i say la, cuz most of the thing i done already, so im acuse, lol, ask mum, "ibu why not we go out?" n mum say "i know u going to say tat" haha! so we go sim lim to buy my ear piece, then suddenly i saw a thaiwan iphone, i was like OMG! iphone, i so wan it, so ask lots of the quetions to the person to wat the difference between iphone, thaiwan iphone n china iphone, so decided to buy THAIWAN IPHONE!!!! i bought it, was so dam happy seh, then mum say now tick iphone done, then i say how come u know i got list?, she say my son, how can i not know...HAHAA!!!

I wan to play with my iphone, gtg now, buhbye...WEEE!!!


SAYONARA!!!!!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Unconscious Sadness...

Koneciwa!


Hey guess wat, today is finally my off day, was waiting for off...plus its my pay day...hahaha!

Well since mum was off too, so she got lots of plan in mind...
1st : POSB (verify my signature)
2nd: Pay Bills
3rd: Deposit Money To MayBank
4th: Await new furniture to arrived at home (weee...finally i can raya...hahaha)
5th: Cut Hair...Darn..

Btw Gomeneh Hidayah n Kak Noormah, was unable to follow them to penisular due to they will go there just to buy the thing they wanted n off they go meet their members...

1st stop, go posb to verify my signature, well was pissed, the person can talk nicely la to me, dont have to shout n let others know tat my signature wasn't accurate...irritating...finally she could verity after a few tries of my signature n with my piss off face i just walk off...
2nd stop, pay bills, i was worried sick tat i cant use my money for myself...then when mum open the bill, thank god, i only got to pay a hundred++ then give mum money, put aisde for my maybank savings n for my ezlink...
3rd stop, took bus to thriple 8 to the maybank to deposit my money but was closed, lucky mum knows there is some sort of ATM for deposit money to maybank, then brother called saying when mum going to bring him to cut hair...then we hurry to the barber shop, as we ask bro to cut hair there 1st...im going to cut hair but later afternoon...bro cut V-shaped, looks cool...
4th stop, went home, n there we go, out furniture has arrived, it took them abt 1 n half hour to complete the removal of the cupboards n assamble the parts together...n i was like wow, the furniture was so nice n cute...wan to c how it look like, come my house...hehe =) n guess wat, my house phone can b used already n my house got door bell...cute tau...
5th stop, my turn to cut hair...well, wanted to ask the uncle cut V but mum said it look like one naughty boy, i laugh but i listen to her, then the uncle cut cut cut....go home, n my bro, hmph said my hair cut wasn't nice, n he said the uncle cut for V shaped but from the front to back, n he said my type of hair style only for straight hair ppl, n in my heart i say then u? cruly maot hair n complain of mine...n he even ask sister to compliment of my hair, hey so wat the uncle give me a very nice hair cut n u say its not nice....shit u...but i got tis skin problem at the back of my head, but nvm its getting better niways...
Add 6th stop, bring one old furniture to my AMK house...the thing was heavy, dam la seh...then reach there rest a while...

On my 6th stop, one of my fren msg me tat she wont b in NUH for long as she wan to work sumwhere else, my place suddenly felt so quiet n i only could hear my heart beating, i got a little emo cuz when she left, my lonliness will come back, n im the baby boy in the ward again, i dont like cuz no one will talk to me n i got no one to complain to, hear my problems, no offence my other cerlic but u peeps r so far from me n had fun during ur working time, but for me im not enjoying but more or less suffering...n i told my mum how my working condition in my ward is like n soon she is leaving...but im not stopping her cuz i will only b a huge rock blocking her to her new life...girl, just to let u know i had really great time working with u n dont let others get inbetween our funnest during working time...i hope u get wat u wanted...

its almost 12mn. tomoro would b a new day of me going work, take care...


Sayonara!!!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

THE NEWS!!!

Koneciwa!!


Even just writing tis entry abt my NEWs just give me the shivers...i cant sleep for the past two days since i got the news...

i know u guys cant wait to hear my news, i got a letter from NS saying tat i would b attending in a few months time...i sudden got tis fear of boys comming bck to me n running through my mind ever since i got the letter...n in few days time i got this medical check up again...to reconfirm my PES, n i was like argh! didnt i do it ones, i had it with tis check ups...if u could feel me right now, im cold n shivering in fears...

I dont know wat to wear on 1st day of enrollment, i dont know if the boys would accept me being around them n ask me to b their friend, im shivering cuz im nothing like those boys, i talk differently from them, as in they talk soccor while i talk fashion. I never had a fist on my face b4, so im scared to get in a fight...

but i got this thinking tat no matter who i am, the boys would like me to b their friends, n now after i talk to a fren, i would like to increase my confident by trainning to get fit...

OHH!! if u guys wan to know when i will b enrolled...wait for it k, i will tell 1week b4 i left...hahaha!!!

OMG!! time...im late for work, take care u peeps, i would b fine if i say so...hehe!


Sayonara!!!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Relationships....

Kaneciwa!!


2day i heard 2 love life tat was crushed, one was my gay fren, he broke up with his bf due to his bf was having affair with a girl...another one was a girl who have this intention to broke up with his bf due to he is not being fair towards her n had this mood swings tat im confuse abt...

Note to Boyfriend:-
sorry to actually hear u broke up with him, but hey u got to b happy tat he is turning himself str8 other then gay...but ya i agree with u tat its a not fair thing for him to do, saying i still love you but not, saying its nothing but actually he keeping a secret. he can just plain break up with u while he still can but dont wan to break ur heart but actually he not just break but smash it...dont worry boyfren, he is not worth to wait or miss or love, cuz he dont dare to release his emotions...

Note To Girlfriend:-
from wat i c, after some ppl actually try to break u n bf up, you already shaking with fear, u try n try to get his attention but more or less he got angry over sumthing...u bought him presents everytime, even there is nothing to celebrate u just buy for him, hey, its u who suppose to recieve presents ohk not him...n stop wasting ur money...n girl, dont wan a guy desperately cuz one day u will fall hard on the ground, tats one thing i can say...now u got the chance to think, think wisely, break up with him b4 he smash ur heart to dust or plan to discuss with him, n ask wat actually he wan from u, didnt u give him lots of attention? think girlfriend think....if there is anything u need to talk abt my phone will b on...


Sayonara!!!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

U Confuse Me Bestfriend...

where is the innocent within you? i dont c it...

Koneciwa!

Now i know i always express my feelings n expect ppl to know my feelings...bestie, i love you but sumtimes i dont understand wat do u actually wan? all i wan u do to is for ONCE in our bestfriend life u say sorry to me sincerely, i told u after u said abt the rank part, tat i dont like it, why do u have to fight bck? cant u say...oppes, sorry, or just plan sorry? is it so DIFFICULT saying sorry? do u have difficulty in pronouncing SORRY? if i know i even DO sumthing wrong, i will plan say sorry...wat do i do to make u know tat u r actually in the wrong n should b saying sorry?? i KNOW for sure kalu kite merajok, it wont help, cuz u WONT pujok...you know how is my attitude like n u should know how to handle it, but for me, ur attitude changes when u got tis mood swing of urs n u confused me everytime...

The only thing tat will make u think abt my feelings for a chance is for me to b half-dead, tat also idk if u will ever visit me...

from wat i always see, when u talk u open u brain but u close ur mind, u know how to counter back but close ur heart when comes to other's feelings.

how i wish we could go out more, cuz by SMS or MSN, we might fight due to not knowing each other's feelings...oh btw sorry if ever i hurt ur feelings n not looking at ur feelings...i was frustrated with u, cuz u only think abt all u, no me in it...niways need to sleep next day morning shift...take care...

Sayonara!!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Blaming n Offending Other Will Only Keep Others Grow Strong..

Koneciwa!!

Me & Hidayah had been working with each other most of the time for tis week n last week...had great time with her, we laugh n laugh, belaja each other, helping each other with work, but the only time we dont get to c each other is when we r really buzy or she is assign in the front 2 cubicals...

Recently today, a mistake tat our AN had done n made hidayah cry so badly, hidayah was scolded by sister tat she didnt update her hourly chart for a patient n the patient died 30mins after we took our break. Hidayah n the AN was assign together at the same team, n the AN had to do CAPD but hey its only 3patients...the AN check the charts on the left 2 cubicals (the cubical where patient died) n hidayah check the 2cubicals on the right...hidayah knows her side got 2 patients on hourly, but the AN didnt tell hidayah tat one of the patient on the left had an hourly too...n hidayah had been helping me with spounging patients since im alone...

After hidayah got scolded n cried, in the afternoon shift came in n ask i heard someone cried, n i was around n the AN was there too, i look at the AN furiously n turn away from there, n they talk in their lagguage, really all tis time she did lots of hurtin things to me n now she wan to do tis to my fren, wat! jealous is it tat i got a fren n u dont have??

We went home....meet up with fatin, n guess wat i slept in the bus, after i shake hands with fatin, i didnt look at her, n i went back to sleep...hahaha, i didnt even notice anyone sitting next to me...was dam tired la...

Note To Hidayah:-
Tis is the 1st time i c u cry badly over someone blaming u, but note tis, dont trust anyone who is not close to you, although someone is in the same team, doent mean u have to trust them fully, sometimes they might forgot or dont bother. n if something happens in ur team, dont take the blame on urself, blame one another for not being good at communicating...n girl, the patient is DNR n all of us can see tat he is going anyways...

Sayonara!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

A Disapointment

Dear Diary,

2day was ever i hear one of the ANs i like say tis to me "Sister is disappointed in you more cuz u didn't complete ur check list n also cuz of tis, she is worried to start a 2 days off for all...", i felt more upset, why sister have to say tat? u didnt gave me a perceptor, a person who extually focus on me n help me finish my check list, now im like a bird lost in the sky, n finding my way, u know wat i mean, i done lots of things, is tat i dont know who can sign my check list n who can't, n if i can talk back, i would say, for 3months i have been independent, or should i say alone with no one guarding my back...

If u think i cant complete the check list on time, you r wrong, cuz i can finish it within 2weeks, only the things tat is easy task, not those hard one la...i will prove it to u...now u made me depressed abt all tis...

Few Things I Suggest If U Wan Us To Finish Our Check List Fast:-
- verbal test
- have a perceptor
- u sign for us (Since You Know We Do Everything Alone)
- look at wat we r doing n sign (Since Yo Dont Trust Anyone)

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Happy Brithday Girl...

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Anger over Feeding

Dear Diary,

Today, i almost fight with one of my ANs, its 8pm n im suppose to go home n i got unfinish parameters to do, n 3 feedings, i ask one of the night AN to help me change bed 14, n she did, then another afternoon AN help to do the feeding, then bed 16 got feeding, n im still doing my parameters, so i ask the same night AN, n know wat her answer was, "NO, i help u do changing already", n she say "why should i help u?" then i answer "I got unfinish parameters n its 8pm", n she replied "I got lots of things n checking to do", then with an angry face, i gave her, i left to take a urinal for my patient, then another night AN walk near me, i pulled her, asking her for help, n she pointed me to the previous night AN, n i say "no, dont, she wont help me" she walked towards her, while i continue with my feeding, n the night AN came to me n said, "i help u do the feeinding u just chart down in I/O", i was like so greatful to have such a great fren...i came to her b4 i left n say thanks, n i almost cried seh...i told her, tat i have double thought in leaving nursing, then she say tats why la, i told her one day the same thing will happen back to her...haha...then i left the ward, n meet fatin, told her everything, n she got kinda furious with the AN...haha niways tomoro im morning, so gtg, buhbye...

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Movie Marathon

Dear Diary,

Finally aishah n me off day got together...so aishah planed to go out...so i ask her, can i invite our friends, so i think who can go, i msg atika thinking since today she half day, like she say, so we could go out...

n i msg pam, zubai, shikin, asyraf n afiq, then abt 11am one by one start to reply, pam cant go cuz she got foundation program, zubai with her religous class (im sure u can skip one class, but idk wats the actual reason), shikin n afiq never reply me at all (i know tat they wont reply), asyraf got jamming with his friends (well cant pujok him cuz everyone got friends ma), atika cant go cuz no money, ohk in all my friends reasons, im really particuler with atika's reasons, do u really need money to go out with frens, unless its due to lack of money for ez-link untill u cant even take the bus...n when friends ask out meanning there will b a few dollors tat can b shared...

then few mins later atika called, saying if she could bring ryan, n saying what is my plan, so aishah's actual plan was to watch movie n eat out, afiq called atika, so called we had a conference n since her reason was no money, n since i just got my salary, i can blanja 2 person n 1more aishah could blanja...so atika n afiq n ryan can go...

then 15mins after i ACTUALLY rush out of my house to b on time b4 afiq arrived, atika msg or call tat afiq, atika n ryan not following, i was like, WTH, can plz dont do tat, i dont like to rush, if can also call like 1hours after u say u wan to go to cancel...i dont bother to ask the reason, cuz im liker sweating n kinda pissed, so walked slowly towards the mrt n msg aishah tat they not following, k lah guys, aishah really wan to meet u ppl n u guys last min cancel...

Skip the topic, met aishah at her mrt stop, n we headed bugis, n shit all the movies suck seh, then we headed towards orchard, we go cathy cinelasure n since i got the NEBO card we got discount...since aishah wan to watch Unborn n i wan to watch Race to the witch mountain, so we bought two ticket, n guess wat, the movies is really next to each other, so b4 we go on with the movies, we had dinner at burger king...

RACE TO WITCH MOUNTIAN...the story is funny, i was laughing all the way, the rock was on of the actor there...n the boy tat was acting, is hot, n i mean hot, he is not cute but hot...hahaha...

UNBORN...the movie was scary, not really tat scary, only the part when shocking part i did shouted, im not sure if aishah shouted or not but i heard lots of shouting...haha...

Its 9pm n off we head home, n i told aishah to plan again, but tis time we try to tell everyone 1week b4 the day we plan, if not its ohk, me n aishah did have fun together...tomoro im afternoon, thank god...can rest awhile...