Dear Diary,
Today i'm talking about myself, i sometimes dont know why i love talking bad/good about myself. Its weird+funny. Here goes...
Me........
1. Nerdy
2. Pimple Face
3. Sweet
4. Love to be Love
5. Blur Always
6. Some say Chinese
7. Some say Brunai
8. Same say Philiphine
9. Cute+Handsome=Ugly
10. Girly
11. People Hate Me
12. Lovely Personality
13. I think i'm bisexsual...maybe not hehe
How i wish all the bad things in my life just erase way and will never be written...now its erasing bit by bit but i just can't wait for it to finish...i wish even my personality will change, i can't live without some changes in my personality. My face, how it will become clear to everyone that i'm not ugly. My walk, how it change to be a normal walk from a model walk. Humph! Hope it will soon change quickly....
Hehehe...I can't live without her, she is my friend but she got bf, she love her bf like theres no one else to love in tis world...I wan her badly but i just can't take her away from someone...LOVE HER!!! I WANT HER!!!
Eh Sabri, did u forget, she not your type, she dont love u, wat i think is that she will hate u if she find out is that u like her...haiz, i will keep tis as my own secret...btw there is still lots of girls...see first la eh...
I wan to sleep liao tomolo got attachment, need to prepare...MUCKZ
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Attachment!!!!
Dear Diary,
Attachment is so tiring, i have to work morning and afternoon shift. The tired you can't tell by just looking, because it like walk here and there, take parameters, write reports. Sounds easy huh? but try u do ar, then tell me easy or not...wakakaka...haiya, tis is my 2nd week doing my attachment, first week, so blur and scared, but when 2nd week, the AN (Assistant Nurse) trust us a bit and she/he will push almost everything to us and the at the end of the job, she will tell us the mistake we make and comment on some of them. Wow u will not belive me but AN work to me is kinda harder then Staff Nurse's work. Humpf! K lah wan to sleep aready tomolo morning shift liao...BYE!!!!
Attachment is so tiring, i have to work morning and afternoon shift. The tired you can't tell by just looking, because it like walk here and there, take parameters, write reports. Sounds easy huh? but try u do ar, then tell me easy or not...wakakaka...haiya, tis is my 2nd week doing my attachment, first week, so blur and scared, but when 2nd week, the AN (Assistant Nurse) trust us a bit and she/he will push almost everything to us and the at the end of the job, she will tell us the mistake we make and comment on some of them. Wow u will not belive me but AN work to me is kinda harder then Staff Nurse's work. Humpf! K lah wan to sleep aready tomolo morning shift liao...BYE!!!!
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Love N Miss My Kitty So Much!!!!
Dear Diary,
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On My 3rd day of my clinical attachment, my sister bring home a small kitten, its a female. First i scold my sister why bring a kitten home? U know my little broher is allergy to cat's fur. But she dont care, and also, she knows that me n my little brother love cats expectully kittens, but then too bad it can't stay at home with us for long cause it will bring more damage to my brother, so my mum told me to put it when it was found, i ask my sister where she got it, then she say its next block, so i bring the kitten with the food and go back to the place and leave it. I felt so sad, because it cant take care of itself when it also dont know where it came from, mayb it got lost or something. Then my mum took me to barber shop to give me a hair cut. Then when i go home, i saw the kitten still there, then i ask who took her back home here, i know it was my little brother but i pretant to ask, then my sister answer that my little bro was walking in and out of home when he saw he kitten under our block. When i look at my little brother, he got the lie look so i know he took it back. But in the end my sister friend said that she can take care of the kitten...so my brother was still not that relax but when he know that the kitten new owner was a very kind person, then he relax but not much la...Then it the good bye.
MISS U SO MUCH MY LITTLE KITTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Some good times
Dear Diary,
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On the 13 April i, my sibling and my father's family when to chalet together...we booked a terrance there, and there were lots of rooms to pick...so me, my brother and my boy cousins pick the top room, it was cold when we gone inside...first b4 anything, we got change into our pajamas, because when we arrived there its aready 8pm, so that day we did not have much fun cause not yet all my cousins came. Luckyly i bought my X-box along, so while waiting we played some games first. It almost midnight n yet still not yet comming, so i went to sleep.
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Next day when i wake up, my cousins were all there, then they ask me to go swimming with them, i hate wereing only pants to i were my whole pajamas n just jump in the pool, since its not a swimming complax, so we could wear anything...its cold but around 3mins the cold has gone...i swim with my cousins from morning then rest n eat in the afternoon then at night we play some games that my aunts organized and we swim again...actually we wan to swim till morning but my aunt told us to get change, so we change and eat then sit n watch televison, one by one, we all had gone to sleep, hehe funny, ya in all my cousins, i'm the olderst among all of them, so i waited till they all sleep...hehe
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You know wat, when we were swimming i saw some malay boys with only their pants on...my god i can tell u they are all hot and macho, i can't take off my eye from either one of them, but of cause la i saw some girl in bikini but not that hot la...lolz...i wish i could talk their pictures n put it in here...wow cant forget that...
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On the 13 April i, my sibling and my father's family when to chalet together...we booked a terrance there, and there were lots of rooms to pick...so me, my brother and my boy cousins pick the top room, it was cold when we gone inside...first b4 anything, we got change into our pajamas, because when we arrived there its aready 8pm, so that day we did not have much fun cause not yet all my cousins came. Luckyly i bought my X-box along, so while waiting we played some games first. It almost midnight n yet still not yet comming, so i went to sleep.
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Next day when i wake up, my cousins were all there, then they ask me to go swimming with them, i hate wereing only pants to i were my whole pajamas n just jump in the pool, since its not a swimming complax, so we could wear anything...its cold but around 3mins the cold has gone...i swim with my cousins from morning then rest n eat in the afternoon then at night we play some games that my aunts organized and we swim again...actually we wan to swim till morning but my aunt told us to get change, so we change and eat then sit n watch televison, one by one, we all had gone to sleep, hehe funny, ya in all my cousins, i'm the olderst among all of them, so i waited till they all sleep...hehe
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You know wat, when we were swimming i saw some malay boys with only their pants on...my god i can tell u they are all hot and macho, i can't take off my eye from either one of them, but of cause la i saw some girl in bikini but not that hot la...lolz...i wish i could talk their pictures n put it in here...wow cant forget that...
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Modeling Thinking
Dear Diary,
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Today i look up on how male models suppost to have...but the most thing i like when i saw some of those pictures is that, there are a few twins and triples were male model....i just wish i could have a twin brother who could join in modeling with me. But if i wish also nothing will could not....i'm aready in the future....have a look at tis twins & Triples....there were awwsome.
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Today i look up on how male models suppost to have...but the most thing i like when i saw some of those pictures is that, there are a few twins and triples were male model....i just wish i could have a twin brother who could join in modeling with me. But if i wish also nothing will could not....i'm aready in the future....have a look at tis twins & Triples....there were awwsome.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Just Call Me Crazy!!!!!!!!!!
Dear Diary,
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5more days till attachment, i'm over here thinking on how am i going to survive and my father's family is thinking abt wat to bring for chalet on the 13-14April...its like duh can't u do it like 2weeks b4 my attachment, people stress aready, make people stress more...haiyo...
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But the good thing about today is that, my sister finally wan to go back to school...yahoo!!! I'm not sure if shes just wan to make my mum happy or just playing tricks again...hoply tis is no longer her old dirty tricks. At last i can see how peasefully my mum is when she is sleeping. Or else, she will like turn here and there and wake up out of the sudden. Hope tis will go on till my me and siblings is married.
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The weired thing about me today is that, i can still think about who is the real girl i love...Hello SABRI, wake up 5more day till attachment and now u still dreamming about your dream girl...haiz...but to let u know ar...the girl who i like is no long who i like, now the girl who i like is written in my heart but not yet filled in with colours...just waiting for her...but for now, let her be happy with her boyfriend...hehe thats the only thing i wan to see, her happiness...muckz her so much....STOP IT AREADY...the more i feel like as if the girl wan me, the more i will lose concentration on my studies....but i dont tink tis will come true, i think it will just be a fantasy.
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Enough about happiness and love...sometimes bored with them...k lah i will update more...i wan to sleep aready...dream girl...haiz....
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Funny and Angry
Dear Diary,
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Today was from a good day become something funny and angry day...u know wat happen? Just now at around 4pm, a stranger knock the house and ask for my sister....my sister was scolded because the stranger's daughter did not come home....its like duh, my sis aready said she dont know where his daughter and he keep on saying dont lie i know all of u and ur friends tricks. My sis lost her tamper and know wat, she bang on the room door and shout. At the time, my mum go n talk to my sister and the stranger talk to me. I was like talking nicely and he like shouted at me and said i dont know anything about having a family, hello if i dont know anything about family, then why i'm standing here and defending my sister?...i know my sister more then he know my sister...he said some more, my sister msg him that her daughter is will be staying at her friend house. Its not true, everytime i called my sister hp someone else answer, a guy or maybe a girl. N u know he dont belive...he even fight with my mum, and my mum said, by the look of his eyes, is like he dont belive my mum...crazy rite.
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The craziest abt tis guy is that when he look at inside my house, he saw a nail polish remover, n u know wat he say, he said that is gum, u know the one make people go dizzy, lolz and he said, dont trust ur daughter on using the nail polish remover...lolz...everyone was giggling including my mum. But he did not see that...lolz...k lah thats the joke for today....wakakakaka
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Today was from a good day become something funny and angry day...u know wat happen? Just now at around 4pm, a stranger knock the house and ask for my sister....my sister was scolded because the stranger's daughter did not come home....its like duh, my sis aready said she dont know where his daughter and he keep on saying dont lie i know all of u and ur friends tricks. My sis lost her tamper and know wat, she bang on the room door and shout. At the time, my mum go n talk to my sister and the stranger talk to me. I was like talking nicely and he like shouted at me and said i dont know anything about having a family, hello if i dont know anything about family, then why i'm standing here and defending my sister?...i know my sister more then he know my sister...he said some more, my sister msg him that her daughter is will be staying at her friend house. Its not true, everytime i called my sister hp someone else answer, a guy or maybe a girl. N u know he dont belive...he even fight with my mum, and my mum said, by the look of his eyes, is like he dont belive my mum...crazy rite.
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The craziest abt tis guy is that when he look at inside my house, he saw a nail polish remover, n u know wat he say, he said that is gum, u know the one make people go dizzy, lolz and he said, dont trust ur daughter on using the nail polish remover...lolz...everyone was giggling including my mum. But he did not see that...lolz...k lah thats the joke for today....wakakakaka
I try something new
Dear Diary,
Just now i try something new....i went to the address below then i try the quiz...u know wat it says...I'm Sasami from Tenchi Muyo, I'm cute and everyone loves me!. I'm so happy when it says like that...but of caurse a girl anime will come out...if u wan to try, click the address below then u can see wat type of person r u....hehe
http://www1.funigirls.com/index.cfm?page=charquiz
Just now i try something new....i went to the address below then i try the quiz...u know wat it says...I'm Sasami from Tenchi Muyo, I'm cute and everyone loves me!. I'm so happy when it says like that...but of caurse a girl anime will come out...if u wan to try, click the address below then u can see wat type of person r u....hehe
http://www1.funigirls.com/index.cfm?page=charquiz
Thursday, April 5, 2007
I Think.............
Dear Diary
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I think every single day, i can't let myself out of a box. I think i'm like trap in a box, thinking of wats going to happen to my whole family...my mum keep on nagging at me when i said i wan to go watch movie with friends, go meet my god sister, is like everything is with the topic "Friends" and even sometimes writting a blog. Ya i know that my sister is aready influanced by her friends, but that does not mean i'm not allow to go out with my friends, my friends are all the type that is good not the one with tattos or will like "pujok" me to stay till late night.
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Now my sis is about to be put in Girl's Home, i dont wan that to happen, but wat to do, the way my sis talk to everyone is like picking a fight, her promise is like go into right ear come out left ear...friends are important to her now, her family is there not here. She got dad but gone in lock up, got brothers also gone lock up, wat next? She wan to die and live her whole live in Girl's home? Is that so? My mum can't live in pease if she keep on thinking of wat to do next? wats going to happen? I wan her to stop, but she dont wan, still my mum is thinking abt that....
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To everyone who is readying now....dont all ways look at the cover and said he is so good la, or bad but look inside, and read, a lot or saddness...not even 10% of the book is written happily...and all of that is me...in sch, home, outside is the same to me, ALONE!!!!!!!!! I'm alone in tis world.....and no wan care...
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I think every single day, i can't let myself out of a box. I think i'm like trap in a box, thinking of wats going to happen to my whole family...my mum keep on nagging at me when i said i wan to go watch movie with friends, go meet my god sister, is like everything is with the topic "Friends" and even sometimes writting a blog. Ya i know that my sister is aready influanced by her friends, but that does not mean i'm not allow to go out with my friends, my friends are all the type that is good not the one with tattos or will like "pujok" me to stay till late night.
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Now my sis is about to be put in Girl's Home, i dont wan that to happen, but wat to do, the way my sis talk to everyone is like picking a fight, her promise is like go into right ear come out left ear...friends are important to her now, her family is there not here. She got dad but gone in lock up, got brothers also gone lock up, wat next? She wan to die and live her whole live in Girl's home? Is that so? My mum can't live in pease if she keep on thinking of wat to do next? wats going to happen? I wan her to stop, but she dont wan, still my mum is thinking abt that....
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To everyone who is readying now....dont all ways look at the cover and said he is so good la, or bad but look inside, and read, a lot or saddness...not even 10% of the book is written happily...and all of that is me...in sch, home, outside is the same to me, ALONE!!!!!!!!! I'm alone in tis world.....and no wan care...
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
All The Problems I Had On 2April.....
Dear Diary,
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Today i had totally a bad day...80% Sadness and 20%Happiness. Tis all problems started early in the morning, at 8am till 12am. Here goes....
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[BestFriends Prob]
I was late 4 sch as in my friends ask to meet early so i was late...but in the end i reach sch and my friends were eating at cafe 1. Fazli, my bestfriend, today look so moody and did not even look at me untill i told him, "Asal dgn awk hari ni npk moody je? Penat dari keje eh?" He said "Nothing", i know my friend very well, if tis had somthing to do with me, he will say nothing. I also want to know, wat did i do till he so moody at me. I know my friend if he is moody and if i ask too much question, he will call me KPO. That is wat friends r for correct? All of us wan to know wat happen between each other. And the worst thing he did to me was, he walk faster then me and my other friends, looked at me only with one eye(u know wat i mean) and he answer my sms only with a pharse such as "k", "good" its so irratating, if i was moody he will did the same thing i did to him wat, ask him why so moody today. N again he is always on my side but today totally not on my side...we were told to choose which place to eat...i pick KFC/Burger King and my other friend said McDonald, u people guess wat he did he choose McDonald. WATEVER LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[ClassMates Prob]
At first, i hang out with my indian girlfriends at sch while waiting for class, u know wat day do, everytime the talk, those beside me will move to the person whos talking, then i move to them again ar, the samething happen. But when i stay at my place, they did not move a bit. I got so left out. Then at around 8.45am, Zubaidah and Shikin came, i tought they will make me lifely agian, but nope i felt so left out again. They only talk to themselves. Then at 9.00am Syahidah and Mariia came, i got so happy that mariia came, cause shes like my elther sis, and yet again she was tired to play around and talk to other girls. But at least in class they talk to me, play with me. But homeing time, again left out....Haiz...but wat to do, i'm the only guy there.
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[Mum Prob]
She first talk abt my little bro, Afandi, she got angry when she saw his fool scrap paper torn and wan to pass up to teacher. Then she change topic and talk abt my sis, she was asking, why tis and why that, if only i know the answer i will answer her. Then worst, i think shes trying to compare me and my cousin, ibu puji my cusion because although no matter wat he still wan to study and she said i did not see u study and yet u say wan to be a nurse. Ya i did wan to be a nurse but i just can't study at home. At home is for me to rest, eat, bath, have fun, and more....sch and libirary is the place for pease and a place to study all day. Me and my smart cousin is totally diffrent. I'm not like him and he is not like me. I wan to be just me not following some other people's foot step...hmph!!!!
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I think i am just too much EMOTIONAL and comparitive. I do wan to be clever. Hate when people is abt to comepare me and some smart guy. Hope tis will end by tomro. Btw tis Happen on 2April 2007............
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Today i had totally a bad day...80% Sadness and 20%Happiness. Tis all problems started early in the morning, at 8am till 12am. Here goes....
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[BestFriends Prob]
I was late 4 sch as in my friends ask to meet early so i was late...but in the end i reach sch and my friends were eating at cafe 1. Fazli, my bestfriend, today look so moody and did not even look at me untill i told him, "Asal dgn awk hari ni npk moody je? Penat dari keje eh?" He said "Nothing", i know my friend very well, if tis had somthing to do with me, he will say nothing. I also want to know, wat did i do till he so moody at me. I know my friend if he is moody and if i ask too much question, he will call me KPO. That is wat friends r for correct? All of us wan to know wat happen between each other. And the worst thing he did to me was, he walk faster then me and my other friends, looked at me only with one eye(u know wat i mean) and he answer my sms only with a pharse such as "k", "good" its so irratating, if i was moody he will did the same thing i did to him wat, ask him why so moody today. N again he is always on my side but today totally not on my side...we were told to choose which place to eat...i pick KFC/Burger King and my other friend said McDonald, u people guess wat he did he choose McDonald. WATEVER LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[ClassMates Prob]
At first, i hang out with my indian girlfriends at sch while waiting for class, u know wat day do, everytime the talk, those beside me will move to the person whos talking, then i move to them again ar, the samething happen. But when i stay at my place, they did not move a bit. I got so left out. Then at around 8.45am, Zubaidah and Shikin came, i tought they will make me lifely agian, but nope i felt so left out again. They only talk to themselves. Then at 9.00am Syahidah and Mariia came, i got so happy that mariia came, cause shes like my elther sis, and yet again she was tired to play around and talk to other girls. But at least in class they talk to me, play with me. But homeing time, again left out....Haiz...but wat to do, i'm the only guy there.
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[Mum Prob]
She first talk abt my little bro, Afandi, she got angry when she saw his fool scrap paper torn and wan to pass up to teacher. Then she change topic and talk abt my sis, she was asking, why tis and why that, if only i know the answer i will answer her. Then worst, i think shes trying to compare me and my cousin, ibu puji my cusion because although no matter wat he still wan to study and she said i did not see u study and yet u say wan to be a nurse. Ya i did wan to be a nurse but i just can't study at home. At home is for me to rest, eat, bath, have fun, and more....sch and libirary is the place for pease and a place to study all day. Me and my smart cousin is totally diffrent. I'm not like him and he is not like me. I wan to be just me not following some other people's foot step...hmph!!!!
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I think i am just too much EMOTIONAL and comparitive. I do wan to be clever. Hate when people is abt to comepare me and some smart guy. Hope tis will end by tomro. Btw tis Happen on 2April 2007............
Sunday, April 1, 2007
April Fool's Day
Dear Diary
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Today when i just woke up, someone call me, its atika my close friend from ITE. She told me that the result was out in a really strange manner...i got scared then, she giggled a bit then said APRIL FOOL. I got suprized and blank, I had totally forgotten today is april fool's day...hehe, if i knew about the April Fools Day i could get her back...so atika, u just got lucky for today...we will see next time hehe...
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Just now, i tried atika trick on to someone else...so i start thinking who to send it to...then aishah msg my hp that she is not going to the chinese lesson. Without thinking so much i know who to send it to...hehe aishah, she is my first victim. I told her the same thing wat atika said to me earlier but i change a bit...that i said i got my result and ask her to check her result...she got shock and said how did u do? without replying her questions, i just pop out the answer APRIL FOOL...hehe...then she scold me untill shes ok then we talk as pernormal...hehe.
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Today when i just woke up, someone call me, its atika my close friend from ITE. She told me that the result was out in a really strange manner...i got scared then, she giggled a bit then said APRIL FOOL. I got suprized and blank, I had totally forgotten today is april fool's day...hehe, if i knew about the April Fools Day i could get her back...so atika, u just got lucky for today...we will see next time hehe...
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Just now, i tried atika trick on to someone else...so i start thinking who to send it to...then aishah msg my hp that she is not going to the chinese lesson. Without thinking so much i know who to send it to...hehe aishah, she is my first victim. I told her the same thing wat atika said to me earlier but i change a bit...that i said i got my result and ask her to check her result...she got shock and said how did u do? without replying her questions, i just pop out the answer APRIL FOOL...hehe...then she scold me untill shes ok then we talk as pernormal...hehe.
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