Night B4 New Year

Dear Diary,

2day is the New Year's Eve, well actually i plan everything and where i wan to go and who to go with but it turn out a mixed up plan, plan with GS going to some occation tat have to wear a pink shirt then yesterday BF told me GS is sick, so i'm thinking of going to see fireworks, so i had atika and zubai to wait for the answer, sorry girls but really need to know the answer...so around 3pm zubai called me and ask, "Dont tell me you not sure yet" haha...so i answer not sure, then suddenly she reject n say If like tat, then dont need to go la...so then around 5pm BF answered and said meet at GS house by 6.45pm, guess wat, i reach there n he was not there and GS was not ready, i was like OMG he lied to me...ok nvm...so we went to the occation, its kinda boring with the not really nice food, so felt a bit regret not going to fireworks, but its ok, still got GS around, sure going to b fun.

After occation we went McDonald and eat ice-cream, we talk n talk n talk, till about 10.30pm, i msg atika, thinking of meeting her to watch fireworks but then, she reply she just reach hm, ok i was like abt pissed of, but i act cool n i reply, its ok, so continue with GS and BF, haha, we had lots of fun, n guess wat, GS keep on worrying abt me because its almost 11.30pm n i told her the MRT wont close till 1am+, further more there is lots of people, so took bus straight to woodlands and reach hm abt 12.30pm, lucky i got key to house or else no one would open door for me, hahaha, all sleeping...

What i missed for the day:
1. Hang out with Friends [Zubai & Atika]
2. Missed Fireworks
3. Missed The Fireworks on TV

HAIZ!!!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME TO THIS WORLD!!!!!!

DID I DO ANYTHING WRONG TO DESERVED ALL THIS??

TELL ME WAT I DID WRONG??

Birthday Boy && My Feelings

Happy 17th Birthday Suhaimi...Baru jadi abg abg ye....hahaha

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Dear Diary,

I had to be straight forward, I'm so sorry atika, if i failed to b your bestfriend, sabri tahu setiap kali school time, sabri selalu dgn aishah tapi tak semestinye sabri lupekan atika kan, guess wat? Atika dgn kwn kwn lelaki atika, aishah got a boyfriend and zubai got a few more friends and there left me alone. I'm always alone in the world, even in my family, do u remember the day during SIM Trainning, i'm damm happy to c you, n did u remember i gave u a surprize hug? Now atika got a new bestfriend who lebih layak jage hati atika dari sabri, sape sabri sebernarnye?? a boy who she first met in school....takpe la atika, mayb its ment for me to b like tis, all alone in tis world and no one to b with, even with fazli i sometimes felt left out. As long my mum is still around, i will have no problem in living in tis world. N kenape atika yg termenung? atika ade berlambak kwn, sabri yg selalu penuh dgn fikiran, sabri kene bully, sabri tak pandai, sabri tak byk kwn, sabri bersendirian, atika tahu tak selame 2 minggu holiday, takde sape pun tau yg ajak sabri keluar, sabri tahu asal, kwn buzy keje, family outting, keluar dgn kwn lain. So far i heard only zubai ajak sabri g jogging tu pun nasib tak baik sabri kat JB. Atika tahu tak air mate sabri meleleh setiap kali sabri nampak gamba atika dgn kwn atika? and skrg sabri tulis pun air mate meleleh dgn penuh sedih....dah lah, byk lagi sepatutnye di tulis, tanak over over lak...nanti start sch tak leh belajar....k lah take cares, sabri kirim salam kat semua...

Merry Xmas

My Days During KL trip

Dear Diary,

Just reach hm from KL, well its kinda long n for sure all of u dont want to read rite so i tell the fun part only la, so i n siblings hop on my cuzz van n we go straight to KL, n tell u wat, its so damm tired and i felt dizzy with the perfume smell of the van, so tahan abit then i slept, reach hotel, place begs at room, touch up a bit then off to go shopping...haha...did saw a few cool watches n bags, but i was scared to buy cause i dont know wat my auntie will say if i buy something like a girls type, well i'm a going to b metrosexsual, so 1st time, i wasted n did not buy it, next day, went shopping again but dis time we went a bit further, n its like a "Pasar Malam" u all just remember Pertaling Street, its full of items and shops to go around but just too little time to spend over there, i bought shades, shirts and a few white and black braclet, well miss my chance of buying a new bag, so next day, tat is the final day we going to b at KL so our uncles n aunties allow us to go Time Square by ourself, we had fun by ourself, almost complete the whole time square but we skip a few, so finally i found my necklece tat have an S on it, thought of buy a couple necklece but think again its a waste if i buy it now without having a gf, so missed again to buy a new bag and guess wat, i brought RM200 and i only used RM65, tat is so little rite, tell u wat, if only my parents were there, i think i used up all the money already, without my parents i'm nothing like an outsider and my dad is a sucker, he only think abt himself and his new family rather then me and siblings.

I finally Know Who I Am

Tats me....trying something new....haha

Dear Diary,


2day i finally realize who i am, and guess wat friends, i'm not a GAY, i now know why i like guys, i felt in love with some of the hot guys body cause they got 6pack and i from there i want to have my own, n when i felt like touching it is when i want to know how it feels like to have a 6pack, then when i felt in love with their handsomeness, then i look myself in the mirror, n tell myself, people from my family to my familes friends keep on saying, i'm handsome and cute, so i'm equal to them, the only diffrent from me and the guys is my behaviour and attitude, tat tells me and others around me tat i'm a gay, so like some people say, i look like a metrosexual tat means spend more time and money to their appearance and might look like a typical gay man, i will try my best to b myself and a metrosexsual, n i told myself, to b a metrosexual u have to ignore other people's comment. N guess wat, from the day fauziah say if i b a metrosexual i'm handsome, haha...my thinking abt fashion is like wah, wan to try tis clothes la that la....haha...


Guess wat u all, i will show u the latest me, i tried to put on wax and took a picture of it, its kinda funny, well my sis ask me to put in friendster but then i wan to try to put it here first, haha....thats all so now i'm living with a light in my heart, k lah take care all n have fun for ur holiday....buh-bye

I'm Getting Sensetive

Dear Diary,

I dont know what got into me lately, but i will get too emotional at sometimes, usually i'm strong but now i'm too sensetive, i will get hurt, jealous, angry and all the emotional u can think of, i got all of them. Mayb it started after the inccident at the ward, the not strong me has conquer my entire body, so people, when ever u talk to me, please mind your words, i might get hurt just by a little insult, but i will try my very best to get it away from me...

A Day At Chalet

Dear Diary,

2day me, syafiqah, raudah n suhaimi is going to Shafilla's chalet, well, i'm kinda late to meet up with raudah n syafiqah, haha due to getting ready late, haha, my siap means bath, put on clothes, touch up on face then go out, haha, meet them at airport, n guess wat, we went there too early, haha, b4 others reach there, we already waiting till they reach, about 2+ then they msg said they reach already, ahhh we waited abt 2hours, then went there, guess wat, i was like staring at shafilla's bf thinking he was shafilla's bro, haha, then sit a while, then felt bored due cant help so we walk aroudn the chalet then come bck, then we eat, chat a bit then abt 3.30+ we go the beach area, tell u wat, its so windy, untill my hair turns so no nice, then suhaimi go buy a kite n fly the kite, guess wat, a weird person like him had a very awsome talents, he fly the kite likke a pro and he said he can skate, OMG, got a bit jealous, but learning from him to fly the kite, then about 4.30+ raudah and syaf got to go hm, go left me n suhaimi, haha, lucky he did not really disturb me, haha, played the kite like the world is not going to end, at about 6.00pm, pull the kite down, then go bck to chalet, syaf msg me tat they returning bck to chalet due to some reasons, haha, paiseh seh both of them. Shafilla is always with her bf, n rarly with us...

Well did have fun tat day, so abt 8.15+ me, syaf and raudah go bck hm, suhaimi wanted to stay due to want to talk to teacher. Well 2days chalet is kinda boring without shafilla around, lucky got suhaimi or else we all will b like 3 statues doing nothing but sit.

-=Notes=-

Shafilla: Next time if u invite us to chalet, dont live us alone n always b at ur bf side, n also try to watch ur bf mouth n not hurting my friends feelings, i'm not here to say bad things but i wan u to think. N sad thing is tat, we cant take photo together and tat was my main thing i came to ur chalet and also to have fun n enjoy last time together as friends. miss u

Suhaimi: Thanks for teaching me how to fly a kite, its s wonderful experiance, n ok, everyone is saying my blog is funny, but i dont find it funny, haha, anyways, thanks for having a great time with me, but hey, sorry for not going to hm with u...miss u

Syaf & Raudah: Do take care alright, dont get hurt by the words tat was said by shafilla's bf, i know how it feels...ok lah...if u want to go out sometimes so invite me ok...i will b bored to dead if no one invite me to go out...hahaha....miss u

Last Day Of Attachment

Dear Diary,

2day, got scolded by sister 2time, just because of fall risk patient, wat the hell seh, well cant blame her its also my fault, attending to 2 patients at the same times, haha, fauziah became a part time clerk, hahaha, attending to calls, dont know a funny girl like her can b a very good clerk, haha, good expirance though, well, so far my morning shift 2day was really tiring, and got scolding, mayb i slack 2much knowing 2day is last day, haha, k lah, fast foward, lazy to talk abt lots of things, then go to break, doris was lost her phone, haha, guess wat she become the next cleanner, haha, digging the rubbish bin, haha, looking for her phone n lucky she did not put it silent mode, or else dead, so guess wat, she found it at the nearest locker n lucky no one lock the locker, haha, she almost cried....so about 1+, i started to take pictures, but not all were uploaded due to lots of image to edit, so later la edit then i put it...haha...k lah more photos....

Last Afternoon Shift With Friends

Dear Diary,

2day in ward not much thing to talk about, well, b4 going into the hospital, i kinda felt like something is stabbing my heart when i'm at brige walking wiht raudah n syafiqah A, almost started to cry, but tell myself, wats wrong? due to yesterday incident, then breath in n out couple of times then i force myself in the hospital, then afternoon, teacher called me, to talk abt the case study and log book, guess wat, she also talk to me abt yesterday inccident, omg, i was shock to hear tat then told her the whole story then i forgot wat i say, haha, lets fast forward, then at night, i was like thinking, lets take pictures then when go in b4 go hm, i start the camera taking then there we go, snapping each other's photo...so i edit a bit of them, then there it is, nice n perfect...enjoy the pictures....