Babies

Dear Diary

Today was so much fun, cuz i learn how to hold and carry a baby. Ahmad shut up ok, its my very and extreme first time to carry a baby...its like this, i was so excited to bath a baby but then there is only 1 baby boy then ahamd got to bath the baby, then the way i see ahmad do it is like pro seh, jgn kembang ah, haha, then teacher ask me to carry the baby, walau, i was shaking, stupid ahmad laugh at me...then from there on i'm brave to carry a baby and its simple, weee...oh ya b4 going in the nurary teacher ask if wan to see a dead baby from abortion...its sad...then in the nursary i feed the baby and change dipers all by myself, congratz sabri you done well and the babies love the feeling when u hold them...and i concer the fear of holding a baby....

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!

KHAIRULNIZAM YOU FUCKING SON OF THE BITCH!!!! I HATE YOU!!! I HATE YOU!!! YOU FUCKING SERIOUSLY TAKE ME AS A TOY WHO YOU CAN PRETEND TAT YOU ARE MY FRIEND...YOU MADE ME REGRET LOVING YOU AS MY BESTFRIEND AND NOW YOU JUST THROW ME AWAY JUST LIKE THAT....DONT MAKE ME SEE YOU IN FRONT OF MY FACE...I WILL SWEAR TAT I WILL SLAP YOU FOR PRETENDING TO ME....FUCKING GAY BUSTARD!!!! GO FUCK YOUR BLOODY BOYFRIEND ASSHOLE AND NEVER EVER COME CRYING ON THE FLOOR LIKE LAST TIME.....FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!! CHIBYE ASSHOLE KANINA......AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Friends dont care if i did something stupid to myself ok....i through with my life......AHHHH!!!!!!

Uncomfortable....

Dear Diary,

My First day of attachment was a surprize, know why?? cuz Ahmad is joining our group and suhaimi and shafilla gone to SGH...then my mind said, oh shit, i was almost taking god for giving me peace and my mind changes and oh man, another person who looks like he loves to disturb...and i was right, came in for CP brefing and got disturb...tis time, he got a tag team partner tat is FAIZUAN...and i'm dead....haiz...but its ok, as long he DONT make me cry, tat is good enough and hope he and other new comers could fit in to our group...

Welcome guys, hope there is no enermies here and there....

Internet Spoil

Dear Friends,

Now I cant use the internet due to something wrong with the computer. I really in the need of using blog and to reduse all my stress, now i'm at my cuzz house just to use the comp, not everyday i'm using the comp, only when i go to his house...lucky monday a friend is comming to my house to help, but if my mum allow tat is...hope he could get the spyware out and delete it...So friends, dont worry we could spend the whole day to chat after he delete the spyware...but if cant then need to wait till my uncle come to my house and reboot the whole comp, tat would be better...hahax...ohk for now i got to go, buhbye...

I'm Getting Emotional More.

Dear Diary,

I dont understand myself, i dont know what is wrong with me, i'm getting emotional too fast and sometimes for no reason, i felt so lonley out of the sudden, i got angry out of the sudden,sometimes cant even control my emotions, i felt like crying always, everytime holiday arrived i dont feel happy at all...All i wan to b with is my friends and famliy, but when comes holiday, i thought i can spend time with my famliy but i cant, mum working, brother sister schooling and left me alone at home, then holiday friends buzy with work, boyfriends and also family outing.

I sometimes wish a special person could suddenly come to me, i dont care weather its a boy or a girl, as long he/she take me as who i am...i cant live with a borken or a lonley heart.Now only my mum who i can let out all my problems to and she will try her best to understand me...i cant really tell all my prob to my friends, cuz sometimes it include them too...well friends, please try to understand, not tat i talk behind ur back its tat, i cant help seeing my friends hurt by my feelings so i kept quiet...

For me even a bit of misunderstnading or a no from a friend i could be really upsad...well, if u dont know, i kept all the probs then i go in my room and cry till i sleep, but its even better i sleep till end.

I'm like a star, i will shine very brightly when i'm extremely happy but now i'm extreme sad, so i'm nothing but a dark big rock in the middle of no where, not worth a single cent and no one would even care if i even alive...so people help me shine again cuz i really want to shine...if its not everyone, at least a person who be fine with me...love you people...

Met A Guy...

Dear Diary,

I met this guy, well, at night, its so fun u know, cuz i got to say out till 5am.

Well it starts when i msg him, then we met...
i was first scared but then i dont want to dissapoint him so i go for it...
So i went down n meet him...was scared but its ok he was really nice..
then meet him, he was seriously funny, then tell him abt my life and
he tell me abt his life.
There we go talk and talk till 5am.

What a wonderful day one day we will meet again and have fun again...
for now i wan to sleep and dream abt talking to him again...hehex.
But ehm...i'm not in love ok, love talking to people who understands and love who i am...
for now...take care...buhbye

BabyPrinceSabri