Tis year Teacher's Day Sux

Dear Diary,

Its teacher's day, and for sure i got the feeling we got half day...and yes, today whole day we finish up our theory lessons and no more make-up class for PCB and after tat all of us unconsciously go home without knowing tat we got BEH lesson, and if its wasnt for pam i will get the big fuss of it, meaning scolding la, form teacher called me and ask all of us to come bck but only 14 came bck.

The thing i hate is tat, BEH teacher keep on nagging till she find a timing to replace for her "1hour" lesson, and after form teacher gave her his lesson time for her lesson, then she kept quiet for a while and calm down and start talking sences, like thank you for coming to class, i understand tat u guys haven got your lunch, do you wan to continue lesson, like fuck kan, wan our teacher time only and please we didnt blame anyone here. Its only a misunderstanding here...

Then go jamming, its so dam noisy la, worst then tat time we go for my birthday, the sound really making my ear drum burst seh...pain, let me say who is who ya, zubai and anis the vocalist, wahh cool seh both have nice voice...the gitarist zee, shikin, asyraf and drummer, asyraf, wooohooo...then rock and roll..lucky i bring my camera, i take pictures (later update on pictures) and then afiq and atika got to go home, haiz, not fun la, but nvm, still fun...haha.

Here is some of the pictures Of we going Jamming

Emotional Due To Friendship

Dear Diary,

Sometimes, i felt scared to face the future, cuz i dont have many friends, as u can see, im quiet and way to emotional, some people say im too dependable . Wats make me like tis and make me see tis way is, i got a bestie whom i love so much have a many friends, but i suddenly dont felt the bestiness from him, i got tis feeling tat im losing grab of him and soon or later we might just forget each other, why i say like tat cuz, now i dont hear any secrets from him, i didnt get any invitations from him to go out, we got quiet when we r together,i cant stand his jokes, sometimes to painful, but never show him the emotion pain b4, now i know nuts wats going on in his life. I felt there is a blockage in between our bestfriendship. I wan to keep both my besties hearts alive in my heart but i keep on feeling tat I keep on making mistake tat i dont know and making them further away.

Sometimes, i feel tat in tis world, i got no one to depand on, each individual of my friends have friends to depand on incase something happen. I dont have anyone but myself, if u talk abt family, my family even have friends to depend on. Sometimes i feel like being evil but my heart has no place for being evil, i cant really b a extrovert, i felt the girl in me wan to come out but i keep on forcing it to go away, i wan to b part of the guys' world, guys have lots of friends example members for playing soccer, hanging out, smoking and more, and i dont suit in one of those things, if i wan to make friends who is my kind, i just felt like im insulting myself. N yes i do felt insulted being around with my kind of people, cuz when i was young, i hang out with guys and they bully me and making soft hands to insult me so if i hang out of with my kind, i felt like they teasing me...

Before my watery eyes starts to overflow, i better stop here...

The Worst Day I Had Ever Had

Dear Diary,

I had just the worst day ever in my entire life, i never react so hard on tis type of situation...

My Friends were all confused wat happen to me, haha, cuz when we go "bush-bush" i was really active, i was playing with everyone, taking pictures and running here n there...haha, then when at school, i disturb people, laughing and happily play some sort like catching...

Here when it happen, i was told by sister n babe to tell a friend to leave my project group, then there was a total silent for a while, n i smile to control my emotions, n i told them, i wan to go toilet, n i go to toilet, set in one of the cubical n type the sms and send to her, was really upset, cuz i never did something harsh or say it to any friend. When its time to go bck to group, i pretend to b happy and jumping around, n i saw friend with tissue in her hands, so i know she was hurt, cuz of the msg, so i kept quiet, i cant even talk.

Then all of us walk to the lift, hid-hid had a teary look n she was talking to pamy, boy came to her and ask lots of questions, i just swing my hands on boy's stomach, meaning something is wrong, when we get into the lift, we all were squeezy, faubabe was like pushing to the bck, boy stop her and said jgn, tgk sab muke sedih, (an advice for boy, next time jgn tegoh, if im in emo status kene tegoh, i will get worst.) then we go out of lift, follow friends to wrong way, haha...

Then tis is when i got worst n almost broke down, friend tap my bck and said thanks for the msg, was controling and controling, pulled pamy, n she scolded me, she thinks tat i was playing, then, i slowed down n saw rusy, pulled her, she saw my face all teary and huged me, i heard she said "Sab not you too" n i just brokedown hard on her shoulders, (hope its not wet, haha) she heard me crying, (i can't cry alone, or else i got tis intention to commit suicide.) then friend come to me, and talk to me, well she doesn't expect the msg is coming from me, if it was from sister or babe she dont mind...and she said things, n i dont wan to mention it here...

Time to go in class, with my blank face, i walk fast, find myself a sit, and put my bag on table, huged it and put my head on it, cry silently, then my group members and hid-hid group come asking me, why u crying? did anyone bully you? is it bcuz of friend? I didnt answer a single thing and just cry, boy come along and sweep everyone away by saying, let him breath and let him relax 1st, some was trying their best to make me laugh, i tell u, it was really funny, but i just cant laugh, my emotions was really tight, pamy and bestie sat beside me and try to calm me down, teacher ask why he is laying down? pamy and friends said im sick, haha so sweet, covering my bck, pamy was really trying her best to make me smile, i remember every single thing she did.

Friend is really trying her best to finish the drawing and she showed to sister and babe, the come to me, lay on my shoulders, and said sorry, cuz of her im like tis and try her best to bring me up and said everyone is very worried abt me, after heard she said sorry, everything is settled, i calm down but still stay in tat position cuz i still cant get to my normal emotions...then pamy wrote a cute letter for me (If i got time, i take the picture of it and place it here), she tried her best and finally she know a joke tat i always laugh abt, she draw eyes at her hands and make it like a puppet, and i start smiling and bestie made the gay voice, i smiled again, then got tired, pamy tap my back as if she is sleeping her little bro, n i sleep soundly, i woke up, i felt abt better, my body temp drop to normal temp, and its going to end lesson soon, haha, boy took pamy wet tissue and place it at my bck and say cute la, like little shark fin, haha, wanted to laugh but cant yet...

Then apologize to TPS teahcer for sleeping in his class and go see MrRT (haha) with a few of my friends to give the class list, then basket boy force me to go in to c MrRT, eeeee...feel like killing him, but cant, without him my friend list isnt complete, so i let him live, haha, n how i am surprise, he knew tat if im Emo, no one know wat happen till i calm down and tell...haha, well i thought guys wont care and wont give a dam, i also thought they only care when girls cry, but really boy did surprise me, haha...and boylaugh almost make me laugh, cuz i never seen him so serious in the conversation room with us...

Then go home with sister, cuz i know if i go hm with my friends, for sure they will keep on irritated me and ask, why u cry bla bla bla and for sure boy will disturb me till i spill it out, well when i go hm with sister, she talk talk talk n i listen, and finally i felt ok and i spill out the horrible medication, and told her wat happen, and straight after sister get out of MRT, i msg all my friends abt wat happen, and why i cry, then i laugh at almost all the replies, lagi-lagi boy and boylaugh msg...haha, but then thanks for replying, at last i msg everyone replied within seconds...haha

To Friend,
I hope whatever u seen today on me, would take a lesson for u, i didnt wan to kick u out cuz u got problems and more but i dont wan to c my bestie, sister or friends to suffer more cuz of ur reasons, if u felt invincible, dont start to think negatively, try to reflex wat happen and why it happen, so far today really effect me cuz it just stab me in the heart for doing harm to u, i dont wan to harm or hurt any of my friends but i just have to do it. Mayb if u didnt know, i tell u now, sometimes u got to watch wat u say cuz u dont know who might b hurt with ur words and also try not to make any reasons cuz the more reasons u make the more friends wont believe you, also try not to make family problem delay u bck from doing something in school, remember, school time is for school, family problem is for family time but of course it wont hurt if u wan to tell us abt ur problems, but u must not take tis problem of urs to effect the school work...
I love my friends even thought they stab me in the back or i hate them, cuz you guys have always been there for me and we share our problems...

So friend, now lets friends relax and calm down 1st, then find a perfect timing and ask them, why u hate me or avoid me, then ones u know the reason, try to change and ask them for a chance, ohk? I'm not supporting anyone in here, im the middle guy, cuz i hear both party reasons...i hope by the end of school time, our relationship get stronger ok...and we will laugh abt everything happen in school...love you...take care....

Handwriting Personality Test...True la seh

I did the same personality test as Zubaidah, n its true la seh...
Its at http://handwrittingwizard.com , try it and u will know...here goes...

My Personality...It Long btw...

Welcome Muhammad Sabri Abdul Razak, here is your handwriting analysis.


Muhammad Sabri is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes.

Muhammad Sabri will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls Muhammad Sabri an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Muhammad Sabri is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Muhammad Sabri is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. He weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to. He basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Muhammad Sabri doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Muhammad Sabri will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

Muhammad Sabri has an over-awareness of self. He often feels self-conscious. He fears ridicule, therefore he is careful not to place himself in a position to receive any ridicule. He wonders what people will think if he acts in a certain manner. When encountering a new group of people, Muhammad Sabri may stay on the sidelines until he has the people categorized, or he may behave in a "positive attention getting" manner to assure people think good thoughts about him from the start.

In the sales profession, this self-consciousness is called "call reluctance". They take the word "no" as a personal criticism. Therefore, there is an internal struggle when performing this type of work. Although this person may be a great salesperson, he still feels insecurity. He will perform better if someone else is with him because the fear of ridicule from his peers is far greater than the fear of ridicule from his clients. Many times this type of person becomes a sales trainer, because when he is training, he doesn't have to put hisself in a position of being told "no" as often as the salesmen do.

In reference to Muhammad Sabri's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Muhammad Sabri slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Muhammad Sabri can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Muhammad Sabri's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Muhammad Sabri that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Muhammad Sabri also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Muhammad Sabri is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Muhammad Sabri's self-concept is artificially low. Muhammad Sabri will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Muhammad Sabri to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Muhammad Sabri is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Something is incomplete in Muhammad Sabri's life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Muhammad Sabri's sexual needs.

Muhammad Sabri is very self-sufficient. He is trying not to need anyone. He is capable of making it on his own. He probably wants and enjoys people, but he doesn't "need" them. He can be a loner.

Muhammad Sabri has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Muhammad Sabri's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Muhammad Sabri has regarding sex and physical things. So, his lower zone stroke is large, so his sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Muhammad Sabri is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Muhammad Sabri has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Muhammad Sabri fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Muhammad Sabri has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Muhammad Sabri seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Muhammad Sabri seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

Its True, but dont get too shock in the middle...teehee...really...

Birthday Sis...Kisses

Happy 16th Birthday To My Little Sis...
I Miss you Every Single Day...
I Want to spent time with you but dont know on wat...
K lah, May all your wishes come true...
I wish God will protect you from any harm...
Take Care Ohk Dear Sis...
Along Love You Always...

Btw People A Joke...My Mum Call My tis Picture of my Sis ET!!!! Hahaha

Cuzz Birthday AND anger...

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY CUZZ...MAY UR WISHES COME TRUE...



Syafiqah A...singing the national antum, i saw in suria so i took it n post, she saw....NYAHAHA


I Just Love Her, She Is Super Cute...My Partner In CP...CUTEKAN!!! I Adore Her...N I'm Saying With A Open Heart...Her Name Is Syafiqah J...


Pam, Atika And Me Play GameBoy, Oppes PSP, I Felt Like A Child And In Tis Picture, I Look Skinny But Actually I'm Fat...

Dear Diary,

Something goes wrong today, bestie felt sad bcuz someone she trust actually backstab her and pulling her marks down, besties dont worry, in ur group member's eye and my eye, we see tat u did the most thing in our group project, she didnt see it cuz she either did not attend our meeting or didnt notice ur hardwork, ur marks tat was given to u was actually for me, cuz i can see tat u did more and should b given more marks then tis. Its just not fair...

To The Person,

U know who u are, bestie did the ppt for u, and is tat how u show her ur appreciation? by reducing her marks? U did not see how hard she did her work and she is the one collecting information from us and putting in a slides, she spend her entire hours at night just to finish this project in time, u did not even go for one single meeting, and not know wat is happening in our group and u mark some of us down? yes u did put ur own marks down but u need to see who did the most work and put it in the highest...bestie is one of the top if u wan to know...and if you wan to talk abt family problem, i have lots of it, and so do some of our group member...

Another reminder for u, another project is coming and i hope u dont do the same thing over again...cuz i hate it...

Lots of Thinking

Dear Diary,

2day i got lots of thinking and its full in my head, can just listen as i get it out of my head?

3friends in school are very close to each other, they do almost everything together...smoke la, laugh la, and the most irritating part is tat, 2girls always attack tis guy testis and squeezing it, okok, ones or twice is fine but i see it looks kinda over when its done everyday...i find it very irritating, i know its not me who get the squeezing, but it pain la, i can feel it seh, the guy some more, doesn't protect urself or scold them when they do it, i seen u in pain twice in the same day...girls, tell me, wat if the guy actually squeeze ur breast, how u feel?? Its more wrong for u to actually touch or squeeze the guys testis without their permission...irritating...like tat ask the minister to actually open new rules, girls and boys can touch each other things anytime...

Well tis is day 2 tat me zubai, rusy and me lepak at civic center...if only atika and shikin had come we could gossip more haha, the point of this lepak is actually for us to let go of wat is trap inside of out heart...well we did lots of promises, so cant write it here or tell...haha today i open a topic abt dark babies having jaundice since fair babies can easily seen cuz the colour changes from milky white skin turn to yellowish, haha, i dont know rusy got jaundice, so i ask, how does the doctors or nurses, identify dark skin babies who have jaundice, is it through eye or blood test? Those who have the answer do tag me...EVIL ZUBAI N RUSY SAID IM BIOUS, i guess tats the spelling...Haha...

Another thing is abt love and couple...Well, i cant stand couples kissing and hugging infront of me, i dont know but its just irritating...I'm not tat attractive, i'm bad at communicating, i dont know how to flirt, i'm too nice, i'm fat and worst im soft...girls wont even take me as a crush and if u even ask a gay to like me also they will reject...hai, hope some one in this world could actually love/like for me who i am and mayb from there, i can change for him or her...if i change now, i dont feel like im me, i will feel like im different person and i might b following someone...

Tomoro, i wont b able to see my girlfriends make over or help them make over, i hope they have so much fun and they would be able to take a full body picture of themselves and let me see...Have Fun Girls

Scolding from teacher

Dear Diary,

Im kinda sad for myself, as a leader i must protect my classmate from getting detention n be responsible in wat did, but today, i forget to tell teacher last week tat friends didnt come for school due to them sick, and they got scolding bcuz of me, although i did say sorry to them but i felt guilty. And due to my forgetfulness, i got double the punishment tat they get...ya its true tat they should call teacher when they sick but they inform me 1st, they scared they cant wake up in the morning due to the medicine reaction...

But i think i deserve the punishment, due to forgetfulness i need tis punishment to tell me to stop forgetting...i got 2hours of detentions hope by tis time, i can at least remember wat to do...

-Notes-
Thanks girlfriends for understanding me, and accpecting my apologized, i dont mind getting tis punishment, you guys know im buzy and got lots of things in mind and also scared i quit as a leader rite...its ok, i will take wat it takes to b a leader and b more responsible, mayb by tis punishment i can be better? Wish me the best alright...love you...

Take care...dont b down alright after reading my tis entry, its alright, im fine...

I hope atika is fine, she got to see teacher personally...

The day my presents came....

Trying to be a model...hmm but why inside a toilet cubical...haha


My Camera, decorate it to make it shine, oh its pink in colour, Olympus ar not Olympic


This is my MP3 or should i say MP4, its touch screen only at the buttons and i also decorate it so it will look more like a disco at night when im listening to it...cool right...


Dear Diary,

Finally today is the day tat i get my camera...wah i cant wait, so i go out with mummy, we 1st go to jurong point to look for camera and when we ask the courts people which one is the offer prize, they cant answer and change the topic, so me and mummy got faddup and we go to funun, tat place got lots of people and cameras, haha, so found a place, and we ask the same questions and he answer perfectly and he even tell us wat free gifts we get and the date of the offer ended, so tats tat, we brought the camera at only $299 and it worth it cuz the original price wat abt $300+ and in additional since i still have money balance i bought a MPS player, the same person entertain us and i bought it also offer $149, i was like the luckiest among my siblings to get to expansive things from my parents, i'm proud to have them and i will study very hard to make them happy, even if i didnt get to poly, i will continue as an EN and wait till my boss ask me to go poly...LOVE YOU MUM AND DAD...

This is my very best present i got from the day i was born...

My Birthday Was A Blast

Dear Diary,

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to SABRI
Happy Birthday to you
WoooHooo...

Ya as you can see that today is my birthday and im legel to buy cigarettes, oppes i did tat on purpose and watch M18 movie, wooohooo...lets skip school time, its so boring cuz i need to help in red cross thingy and missed all the fun with my classmates...

After school, zubai called me, me and fazli go down n meet up with afiq asyraf atika zubai and shikin, they wanting to eat at KFC, haha, i should sit in the middle but fazli insist on him sitting in the middle then haha, its ok la...finish eating our lunch, go toilet with fazli and ones i come bck n sitted, i was like shock la, they SANG a Birthday song and the group of my indian nursing friends also singing together with me...in the KFC, wahh, *blush blush* and ones the indian girlfriends finish their meal, they came and they sing again, n tis time atika took video, n i 4get to take from her...

Then, later after, asyraf ask fau, was to go jamming, and my group member go and invite me along, haha, so cool, i was like jakon la, never seen a jamming room b4, thinking it would be like a big space but in the end the big space was ok, big enough to fit 8people...fau zubai and asyraf, play some songs and i was so loud and fun, love to see my friends talents...fau ask me to check wat time our jamming finish, so i ask atika to follow, i came bck, zubai told me to prepare myself, they go a surprise for me, they did their last practice...

They atika join in, and they sing a song for me called your my guardian angel, i was really touch, wanted to cry but cant, was too happy and smiling all the way, after tat, i huged them, since the boys dont wan so i dont bother, even if i ask it would be heart pain so haha....well thank them they r there too...

Then go home sleep for a while and go our with family to celebrate my birthday with family at bilal...haha...bought a little cake and my mum sang a birthday song for me while i open the wrapper tat covers the little cake...haha cute tau...then go home and feel like wanting a longer time for my birthday...was and extreme memorable day....

MY TIS YEAR BIRTHDAY WAS A BLAST....THANKS FRIENDS...LOVE YOU

BCLS with Class C

Dear Diary,

Today doing BCLS with class C, i was really scared if i cant get along with them, but what i thought was all so wrong, ones get in class, syaf called me to sit next to her and sudden shikin said, "eh sabri" n sit next to me and chat with me, i was like shock la, a girl i thought sombong and now she talking to me, haha, so cool...and the one tat really shock me is tat, my BEG classmate fariz, he actually talk, he made me laugh with all the funny thing he did with shikin...but of course, their class was use to them so didnt laugh tat much, i was a new person, cant take their funniness (i dont the word dont exist but it sounds nice), so for every small thing they did i laugh...n one thing abt fariz, i really think he was the type tat look down on people and think he is high abt himself but actually he was bored tats why he look like tat, but in class he was playful.

I dont know wat got into me, if i find a guy stare at me, i got scared and think differently like they hate me, they dont like me, 1st thing in their mind was bully me, but now i see tat some guys if they stare means they wan b friends, unless i did something wrong then la...haha

Okok, enough abt class C, finally i did my practice cpr, teacher said didn't pin point mistake like the other girls in my small practice group...haha, tats mean im confidence in doing my cpr, actually i thought i was the 1st to do cpr but i was wrong, i was the last to do it and in the end, instead of staying for a while, i stayed till the whole class had finish...but i didnt regret cuz after cpr test, they actually teach abt recovery position, and how to use the ambu bag and how to place it...

Well i understand wat the boys felt when they need me to bcome the casualty for recovery position but since i know wat they felt, i let other boys become the casualty, kinda sad but its ok, anyway thank you nazirul for becoming my casualty, lucky u r not the guy who is shy to let me try the recovery position on u...i still dont understand why other guys r so shy with me? i wont molest u or worst rape u or anything...

Haha, i pass my BCLS and its raining so heavily....i'm sick....acchoo

Birthday and Some Sadness

Dear Diary,

1st thing before anything...HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY To Fazli...May all your wish come true...

Wahh today the weather is extreme hot seh, was very thirsty, so i ask everyone of my friend so let me sip their water, haha, and i saw a friend of mine buying cigarettes from another person its a really painful thing for me to even look at it, i know my friend had been smoking but i never see my friend in this situation before...its horrible...I HATE YOU CIGARETTES, YOU TAKE MY FRIENDS AWAY...then in TPS class was suppose to go to fau's group to do project and then with a sudden change i had to go with Jamie, hmm, wasn't angry or anything, but was frustrated with the changes, to compare with Jamie and Me, i was the stupid one and she is the clever one. Ones everything is done, she pass me the project, haiz, i got to do it, i was stupid cuz i dont know wat is travel things, then going home time, me afiq atika asyraf rusy and zubai was walking to bus stop when zubai's friend was beside her and in my mind i already knew wats going to happen. Then really seh, wat i imagine came true, rusy and me was separated while zubai and her friend sit together, was kinda angry/jealous so i kept quiet all the way, tell rusy, sorry i got mood swing, she was so worried tat she keep on asking wat happen, who make u like tis, well like normal i say nothing, cant tell, haha. Zubai, u haven seen my merajok yet, if u see, i dont even think u dare talk to me...haha

Before i end 2day's entry, i wan to say during BEG class was extreme fun, we did our phase test, and took lots of picture, will update it soon...

BCLS Vs Medical Check-up

Dear Diary,

As you all know today i have BCLS and Medical Check-up on the same date, bad luck of me...So came in the morning, pass mr tan my letter and we all learn how to do cpr n guess wat, the tech tic is the same only the maniqune is different, tis time there is a thing call relax in cpr, ouch, my hand is aching but will keep on trying anf trying till i get the relax part correct, well to syafiqah, do ur best to get it right, prove to teachers even a small cute girl can do it correctly, when we r practicing, time flys so fast without us knowing, the whole morning we practice and afternoon is test but too bad i cant take today, due to medical checkup (me showing down face)...i had to do cpr with another class, help help...haha its 11.30am, ask shikin how to go CMPB and she tell me...

And now i'm on the way to meet my dad, he waited for me like so long, haha poor dad, thank u dad...ok took 145 from red hill and stop at the 6stop and take the bridge and we have to go for a very extreme long walk in the very hot weather...sweating all the way and complaining to dad...and dad not helping and said, tis is only a little , wait till during NS, me from sweating normaly turn to like i just bath....we go find the CMPB and here we r at the center, dad cant follow me so he sit at the area and wait...sorry dad...

Medical Check Up Begins...Heart Beating Rapid. 1st was the photo, told to change clothes to some so call uniform, n with my messy hair, he just snap my photo, haiz, how i wish i can c the picture and take again...then was told to go to medical check up, took all my document out and glasses, and proceed to the medical place, after registration my 1st station was Hearing test, they test with soft tones, was cool...then 2nd station was Urine and Blood thing, i was like, oh my god...scary...haha was given a dipstick, haha i was telling myself, i'm pro at it...haha, then queue up for blood thingy, my name was called and i sit at the chair, the doctor place gloves instead of toniqane, haha, wrong already, lol, then he hit darm hard on my arm, i was like SIal la, i wanted to tell him, can beat not too hard, my arm was red la seh, he locate the vein and he poke, it would b even pain if i c, haha, so i turn and tears r almost down my eye when the doctor ask me wat school im from and wat course im in, haha he ask me some nursing questions, lol, i was shock so i answer wrongly...haha...the proceed to 3rd station dentel, the dentist said my teeth was ok but he said i got bad breath and he cant tell where its comming from...i got sad, and i keep on checking my mouth every min...then 4th station X-ray, told to take off my clothes and stand extreme close to the cold metel thingy....the person incharge was super nice, the last part, he said tat all sabri good bye, so sweet...5th station was the part i regret last...i go to the counter and he ask me to read the instrustion n guess wat, one of them is to take off my clothes and shoes and proceed to ECG room...haiz...took my locker number and sign my name...and took off my clothes and the weird thing is tat, i dont feel shy or embarrassed at all, its like i done it b4...lol...6th station was ECG, tis i got to complain, ok it was cool la the ECG isnt the same like the hospital on, the one on body was like a suction thing and the leg and hand was like a huge clip...ok the 1st printed wasnt successful and he took another one, wah ones he finish, je just forcely pull the suction thing from my body reaving red mark, i hate i hate. 7th station was height weight and blood presure...all were ok, but i wan to know my height and weight, but cant see...8th station was checking the penis part...haha sensitive part, but im sharing it...need to wait for my number and waited and waited, lol while waiting i can still c the marks on my both after the ECG and people front sides and back is like looking at me, either wan to make friends but scared i dont wan or thinking i'm weird...then my number was called, the doctor was fast, he said, "Give me ur file, stand at the door and pull ur pants down" he look at it and said "pull ur pants up and sit at tis chair" he ask me a few questions and i ones answer wrongly saying i got no drug allergy...lol, finish i got out, give the counter guy my file and he told me to clear my locker and dress up...and i wait for my name to b called...haha..9th station, my name was called and i need to proceed to the room where i will b doing my psychology test, mind test for short, so sign in and use one of the comp, tell u the questions is tricky but i had fun doing it, alot of pattens, alot of shapes and alots or memory and lots of maths, haiz...but i like...haha, done it...now its time to go home...go to dad take things and we both go home...

In the middle, i ask dad tat mum buying my a camera and i ask him to share since he also dont know wat to buy for me...teehee...he start mumbling nonsence and finally i got him to say yes to buy me a camera...haha...mum and dad share to buy me a camera...

Tats all for today, tired and want to sleep...buhbye people...