Day 2 Raya

Dear Diary,

Day 2 Raya is the day im going to book in, felt quiet sad cuz i wont b able to have fun during raya...since im going in today, might as well i go do a bit of visiting, 1st house was my god-sisters' house, i missed them so much, i didnt treat them as if they were my god-sisters but i treat them as if they were my own sisters...i disturb them as usual...weeee...we did took lots of photos even though it were only us...


Next i follow my family go house visiting together with my uncle...did have fun though, but was really worried abt time cuz its my 1st book in, didnt know wat to bring n so on...

Last of all is when i promised my grandmum from father side tat i would visit her, did stay there for a while, then thought of going home as its going to b late, then auntie called asking if im still there, n she ask us to wait, i waited but it was really late, then they all rushed home just to see us, but as u can c, its 6pm n i should b home, i was seriously restless, my auntie ask me to talk abt my life in army, but i was restless n worried abt book in, i talk as if someone put ice inside my pants...one of my auntie tried to lighten me up by telling me tat she will b sending me to camp, i was excited but still restless, then my other aunties saw how restless i am, they ask my aunties to send me home n go camp...

B4 going home, my girls cousins all wanted to follow my auntie to camp, lucky they were small in size, went home, pack all my stuff asap, wore my uniform, tie my shoe lace n wore my army cap n last of all, we took picture...awww...im going to miss them...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!

Dear Diary,

As u all know its hari raya today, feeeweet, kinda sad cuz mum got to go work in the afternoon, n today theme is blue...n i can wear size M, weeee!!! im so happy, raya to me tis year is like nothing, but with mum around, i feel like its at least something...sis buat perangai today, as she came home early morning n she dont wan wake up to go visiting...

Sha i got sumthing to ask u, dlm sms u said u hate ur life without someone to talk to n bile along kat umah, wat u do? senyap, keluar rumah, balik lambat, along keep on feeling odd...

Just only just now my nenek from father side kate die balik awal to meet me, i waited till 5pm bro ask to call dad, then dad kate tk jadi sal balik lambat...but gd thing they will b staying in singapore for a while but bad news, dad will not b following as he following step mum n fam go KL...

He break my heart 3times in a row for now, why everytime when some event happen to me or wen i wan him, he will tend to bck off, i got lots of questions in mind for him but idk how to express it...
wat is the 3times he do to break my heart.
1st:Didnt attend my 1st day of NS
2nd:Gave Money to me n ask me to bring adik2 g beli baju raya sendiri!
3rd: He didnt even bother to meet me when i 1st book out tat is Hari Raya...

Ayah, ayah memang sentiasa baik tapi byk pekara yg perlu perhatian ayah langgsung tk ambik duli, nape ayah buat cam ni? ape yg along buat samapi ayah cam ni? along andi n shasha lom kawin tau pun tunang, kite masih perlu seorang ayah yg look after us, ibu did her part as a mum, now we need ayahnye part...

Just by thinking abt ayah, i can just brust out of tears...

IM BCK!!!!

Dear Diary,

IM HOME!!! Gosh, i miss home so much...

Let me tell u guys wat had been happening to me during my ns days ok, im excited to tell all of u, n im sure u guys r excited to hear abt it...when i got in camp, im blur like hell, but thank god i know where is my company n its location, so i just follow the ppl around there...they assign us to our platoon n sections, oh just to let u all know, im in Alpha company (yellow colour) platoon 2 section 4, haha...my bunk mate consist of 6chinese n 2malay(include me), kinda bored but at least got one malay to talk to...then we fall in to get our army staff, i tell u, the big black bag is dam heavy, with one plastic bag of uniform n a field bag, i was like hanging on, stop once in a while, then got in the big tent to check items n go form up to our sections, tell u, my platoon is in lvl3, n imagine u carrying abt 15kg big black bag n abt 10kg field bag up to lvl3, i was like omg, i cannot handle it any more...

Skip the 1st few days, as days goes by, i felt scared i might not have friends, but in the end, a few boys talked to me n since im quiet, i need to open up, at least sit n listen or talk bck...the funny part is when shower time, i always take my time to take my clothes n towel n go toilet, n once a boy came to me n say "Eh sab! dah mandi ke lom??" i say not yet he say "Kau gi mandi skrg, jom ah semua mandi same2", i just said ok n i got take my things n went toilet n when i got in guess wat i saw, the boy, only him was naked, n oh our toilet got door, weeee...but he didnt use the door, he just open it, then u saw me n say "Dtg pun kau", i was like OMG, i cover my eyes n walk to the nearest wall, ahah...then when someone finish i got in dash inside, haha...

One of the days he said "Eh sab, cpt ah g mandi, aku nk tgk kau bogel" haha!!! i was like WTF, but thank god he didnt saw me ah...

Other then him, all the malay boys was good to me, days goes by, i talk to each n everyone of them more n more, n oh just to let u know in our company me n firdaus were the only 2 nurses, haha, n we both were assign in the same platoon n we both were toilet ic...wth rite...

but ppl, no worries, army is always tough, but i got friends there now, so i got lesser problems, only tat i miss my girl/boyfriends go much n i missed mum dad bro n sis too...i will try to update everytime i book out ok...no worries...Love u guys...XOXO

The Big Day

Dear Diary,

2day is the big day for ur little boboy...im going to report to camp by 11am, so im suppose to sleep but i just cant, my mind keep on thinking wats going to happen to me in camp, 1st day, ppl say isnt going to b tough, but i wont depend on tat, sumtimes 1st day could b rough, thanks friends n fam for the gd luck n all the best msges n comments, really appreciate it, kak su n kak hos dont worry abt me so much k, i might b manja n sweet most of the time, but here i am going to learn how to b tough to protect the manjaness...

Pack my bag already, just need to get a few stuff from sheng shong with mum later on n then im off.

To Sister, im happy tat u actually did it, all the problems will soon go away ok, *BIG HUG* dont worry abt along, along will b fine...

To Ayah, im really disappointed with u ayah, im more disappointed tat ayah give along some money to spent with adik for raya, we bought our baju raya with ibu already, but why cant ayah bring adik2 go shopping while im away? it wont hurt if u could just step in Singapore for just one day, u keep on telling me i will understand once i get married, ayah, married or not married, who r we to u? adopted sons n daughter? adik yg dgn ayah tu skrg kecik tau, she got more attention from u n we dont get enough, ape lagi shasha, she misses u so much, even when i ask u to call her to give her the money, wat u do? u just complain to me tat if u call her, sister will delay the timing...i seriously dont get u ayah, u change so much, n not to forget, ur 1ST SON! going ns today, n u dont bother to attend, if cant follow all the way to camp, u can at least send me to yck...if ayah talk to me abt ayah buzy dgn keje? what is ibu doing? she take leave just to send me, all ur sons n daughter misses u SO much n wanting to spent at least sometime, just a question ayah, do u wan to spent a whole day just with us? along seriously rindu the time sebelom ayah kahwin, u spent time with us almost every weekend, but now? if we dont go there, u will never step in here to spent time with us...we r not yet adults tau ayah, we r still teenagers, let me spell it for u T-E-E-N-A-G-E-R-S...dah la ayah, do it ur way, i dont wan to tell u wat u suppose to do as a father...my last words for u IMISSYOU&WILLALWAYSLOVEYOU...

Now ppl let me share my most favorite song from Super junior

Misses School Life

Original Dance Moves...


Copied By Singapore School Students...

Play both video together, it super duper cute...

Dear Diary,

Just by watching them dance, i seriously miss school so much n my friends the most, i hate my pri n sec life, they give me hate n embarrassment, but unfortunately, i do have some great friends from there like fazli, hanisah n zufarina, this r my besties during sec life,sadly khairul was once too...cant believe i even wan to write his name in here...

My ITE life, really bring life in me, although there is some miscommunications n some fight, friends r always there when i need them, i still remember my 2years of birthday in ite, was fun, of course i cant miss having MISS RAFIKA our 2nd form teacher, she is the most fun to have teacher in ite...if only i could give her a big hug...

I will try to find my ite life pictures n make it into a video n put in youtube...i miss school n friends so much...

Kinda to think abt it, 1st child always have difficulties in making friends or how to behave in school or go out with friends, while his/her siblings r very lucky to have him/her in life cuz they will find him/her like a role model in life...

Hang Out With Hadri & Meeting Atika

Dear Diary,

Me n hadri plan to meet as he wan to update his photo album, i become his photographer while he become the model, haha, he do have the looks of a model, he do know how to pose. haha i wan to make my eyes big in pictures is really hard...haha, cuz in the end it look like weird...too many many pictures, as i cant upload it, might as well i took the one with my picture on it...haha!! was fun, he help me with searching for my ns items, then i off meet atika, took taxi as i wan really late...

The timing to reach Far East plaza was abt 20mins but idk how come the cost is dam expansived, i kena $20, from my house to NUH i took taxi, the most was abt $15+, its ok, meet atika, she wan to pay me, but i ask her just pay my food sudah, so REALLY excited when get to meet her, we didnt meet for abt 1/2 a year, imagine, well cant blame anyone, cuz we already started working...atika bring me to where we r eating, my 1st thought was some sort of restaurant, but in the end, its like a small stall with a few sits, but tis ok, as long get to eat, guess wat, the place where i am sitting is at the side but was facing the whole table...when i was eating my food, i am really shivering, not shivering cuz of cold, but fear, i wan facing a total of 13boys n 4girls, told atika abt it, then guess wat, die lagi la, nk kite introduce kan tk, she just pull me, n start telling everyone who i am n their names, but swear to god, my face my all red n the fear almost make me faint, but i stay strong...n i lost count who was who...haha!! all i could remember was Fadli n Amir, i think tats the name...haha

Then the boys plan to go shesha, we were kinda excited as we so long never been there...sit there, i did try a few puff but i couldnt anymore cuz dah pening, bukan mabok eh, mabok lain...haha...the service there wasnt tat great, for just plain water they charge n the shesha cam abt 30-45mins later i guess...then finally we go home, sweet of some of the boys n atika to walk me to mrt....weee...hehehe...im scared to take bus cuz its night already...lol

tats our last photoshot...atika love u bestie HUGX!! c u soon...

Releasing My Stress

Dear Diary,

I was Really Stress today, yesterday stress i have not overcomed, n today mum said to me, "As Days goes by, n u going NS, you had been rude to me", i felt like telling her tat, why cant ppl c tat im actually stressed over up comming week, ppl tat i expected to there by me wasnt there, mum was one of them... why ppl keep on thinking im bad, its like ppl wan me to b my oldself, a non-talking doll, even if it got hurt, it just keep it inside? u all of u wan me to do tat??

Im just wan to plain say sorry to ppl whom i hurt cuz of my selfishness of sharing my stressed, ppl should know when im stress n how do i behaved when im stress...

Zubai wont b able to run with me as she is tired, dont blame her cuz i know wat she is doing at her house, so i did run alone, did only one big round, was tired cuz i had been stress so just releasing it, reached hm i showered n wait for hadri as he wan to web-cam with me...

Thank god today i dont have to scream like b4, i just talking normaly n he could hear me, from there, we talked abt ns, he give me tips, talking abt boyfriends, haha, n i told him my stress, n finally i told him a ULTIMATE SECRET only 2 other person know about it...


Sry Dear if u look horrible in tis pic...

He was so shock, he start asking me questions, haha, was actually funny...i know i could trust him in my keeping my Ultimate Secret...then its time to say good bye, but its ok, we be meeting soon to cam whore as he missed to take pictures...n so do i...haha...



Tis video tat was made by Jake make me melt...
Just by watching i could like melt n watch him all day, n i heard his britsh voice, its so adorable, i keep on melting as he talk..tis video title i think its Sexy Bitch...

Watch n Melt...

Buke with Aishah&Zubai

Dear Diary,

The day finally came, pam n atika cant make it due to their personal problems, so met up with zubai, thought of finding something for my ns, but didnt make it cuz aishah was about to reach, we went to orchard, we do roundings, but our main thing was to find zubaidah hmv shop cuz she wan to find her FT ISLAND cd, wooohooo!! haha, found it, but its kinda expansive, so didnt bought them, as for me, since we r in hmv, i keep on looking for my 2 main videos, tat is push n jumper, then guess wat, my ultimate fav movie was there, PARENTS TRAP!!! i was like screaming in my heart, then i just take it n keep on finding the other two, bought all 3 of them, n look still got time, we went roundings n then we head to the nearest pizza hut as it was the original plan of the day...zubai took a few pictures while waiting for our food to arrived...






Food was served!!

But sadly, mum have not yet called to inform abt if its azan already or not, then once mum call, i was 1st to start eating the kurma given, haha n i can c all the muslim tat was there, was staring at me, n my frens was like, betol dah leh mkn? then i felt shy cuz lots of eyes, then with my semi-loudest voice, i say "Dah azan la" haha, was funny, we keep on laughing...had our dinner...

Then we went to cinema, the girls wanted to watch FINAL DESTINATION 3D, i was like ok, i really hate the 3D glasses....bought the ticket, n we sit down n wait for the time...





Then its time to get moving, got in out theater, sit, n we keep on trying on our 3D glasses, was funny, haha, but seriously i hate it alot, cuz it keep on sliding forward...the show gave a bit of like eeeewwww, argh, disgusting as body was slice, chop, sucked thank god its not a ghost story, zubaidah thought i will b like screaming, but too bad i prove u wrong...nyahahaha, i will scream if its a ghost story, but its not...lepas for a few mins, got on train n off we go bck home....



Thanks girls, u made my day...

-Note-
Atika Pam, sry i got mad at u guys for not comming, cuz i dont expect LAST min cancel, to let u know frankly, i prefer last min planning then last min cancel. Watever problem u guys had, i hope its solved asap, so u wont b thinking abt it... Just dont forget, im not just an ITE classmate, but im ur CLOSEST Friend ever...

PS: I Will b Waiting for Either 1 of our group members to plan n outting, cuz i give up in becomming a planner...