Band Concert

Dear Diary,

Last week in army, i got lots of training for field camp, i just learn how to camouflage n did the SOC ground, haha, SOC may look easy but i tell u its much difficult when u try it....i hurt my hand when doing the straight arm lift...n i was called a heavy duty...so bad...i lost lot of weight n yet ppl think im fat...omg!!


Just now meet fazli n hadri as hadri invited me to his friend's band concert, i didnt knw its a band concert so i turn up with sleeveless, thank god i brought my jacket along, in case we watch movie...haha, the concert was awesome, love it, i didnt manage to record as saving the batt for pictures...after the concert we went Sempang Bedok to eat, tell u wat, the place look like i could have a meal tat is cheap, but na'ah, its expansive, the milo gozilla ONLY! cost $3 n which milo ice only cost abt 90cent...omg!!! 1 scoop of ice-cream n the milo powder cost $2, tat wat i culculated, ARGH!!! nvm once in a while should b ok...took pictures n had fun but sadness my batt run flat when its abt to get exciting...aww man...haha...ni ways not much to say, pictures will b updated soon, hang on to it ok...buhbye!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NENEK!!

Dear Diary,

Today is my grandmum's birthday, i dont know wat to buy for her, so since i didnt know wat cap to buy, so i just give my grandmum the amount i took out...her eye was teary, i told her dont b sad, must b happy as its ur birthday...hehe...love her lots, "Nenek along sayang nenek sangat sangat...KISS KISS HUG"

B4 meeting my grandmum, brother told me, wat i write in my blog abt family? i said nothing, he said i wrote something tat made my aunties n step-mum angry with my dad, so the topic is abt my dad? i cant express my feelings to my dad as he will not hear out my feelings, so only place i could express out is through blog n talking to my mum...to aunties, cousin, grandmum n stepmum, thank u for understanding how i felt, tapi tk yah la marah ayah, ayah ade hal ayah yg untok ayah penting sangat, along cume sedih yg ayah tk interested to send along to my 1st day of enlistment his 1st son, n abt 1month later i got POP(post out parade) meanning i finish my 3months in ns, i also dont know if he is interested to even follow...biala, as long mum is always b with me i dont mind, cume sedih je...asalkan ayah bahagia...

Once agian, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GRANDMUM!!! MUCKS

Its Us Again

Dear Diary,

Today meet faz n kak su, as we already plan to meet each other, missed them, we did have much fun, kak su sorry if i disturb u, haha, kate adik, haha!! so my plan for today is buy cap, belt n watch a movie...but in the end, i didnt buy them, instead i bought, myself a sleeveless cardigen (which i love at 1st sight) n small esprit bag, 3dvds n a small mp3 mayb bring to camp...



I dont really have much to say, but all i could say is tat i had lots of fun everytime i go out with them...they will never lose my contact...lets plan again tis outting ok kak su n fazli, tis time, lets make it a little bit earlier so can have more time...c u guys around, buhbye....!!!

Stress Week

Dear Diary,

I had a very stress week, kinda missed my mum so much as i didnt get to call her for three days, not to say only her but some of my friends i use to call...live firing was fun, n its seriously fun as get to try out a real weapon with real bullet...then everything got worst as on wed a guy surrender a bullet shell to our captain, from there the suffering starts, we open pasar malam two times in a day, its very tiring, n for 3 conservative days, i cant use the phone as we got only 15mins to settle ourself, like showering, prepare for next day, n for tat three days, i got scolding from my Sargent tat i use my phone like 5mins after lights off n all i could do is msg...

Then book out, i felt abit relieve tat im going to meet my mum as i thought she is off from work today, but i was wrong, when i came home, mum was already off for work n she is in the afternoon shift...i went in my room tat is dam dam messy n then i called my mum n cried till i felt asleep...

Woke up, use the comp n guess wat i got a reply from KHAIRUL!!, was just thinking of forgive n forget abt him, but he shoot me bck bad, he said i dont understand his condition right now, n his bf does, how would i know if he never talk to me...n he say further tis question,One more thing sabri i really want to ask you this question...And please be honest with me...Do you like or love me? I'm asking you because that something about you wanting to be with me and i'm curious... wat would u react if the person just pop a question like tat?? im a BISEXUAL DAMMIT!! n does tat mean i have to love u? n if a friend let go of a friend, wat do they do? try to pull him/her bck m i right...walau, ask such a stupid questions...

I had enough of the stress for today, tomoro im meeting faz n kak su, feeling excited....!!!