Day 2 Raya

Dear Diary,

Day 2 Raya is the day im going to book in, felt quiet sad cuz i wont b able to have fun during raya...since im going in today, might as well i go do a bit of visiting, 1st house was my god-sisters' house, i missed them so much, i didnt treat them as if they were my god-sisters but i treat them as if they were my own sisters...i disturb them as usual...weeee...we did took lots of photos even though it were only us...


Next i follow my family go house visiting together with my uncle...did have fun though, but was really worried abt time cuz its my 1st book in, didnt know wat to bring n so on...

Last of all is when i promised my grandmum from father side tat i would visit her, did stay there for a while, then thought of going home as its going to b late, then auntie called asking if im still there, n she ask us to wait, i waited but it was really late, then they all rushed home just to see us, but as u can c, its 6pm n i should b home, i was seriously restless, my auntie ask me to talk abt my life in army, but i was restless n worried abt book in, i talk as if someone put ice inside my pants...one of my auntie tried to lighten me up by telling me tat she will b sending me to camp, i was excited but still restless, then my other aunties saw how restless i am, they ask my aunties to send me home n go camp...

B4 going home, my girls cousins all wanted to follow my auntie to camp, lucky they were small in size, went home, pack all my stuff asap, wore my uniform, tie my shoe lace n wore my army cap n last of all, we took picture...awww...im going to miss them...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!

Dear Diary,

As u all know its hari raya today, feeeweet, kinda sad cuz mum got to go work in the afternoon, n today theme is blue...n i can wear size M, weeee!!! im so happy, raya to me tis year is like nothing, but with mum around, i feel like its at least something...sis buat perangai today, as she came home early morning n she dont wan wake up to go visiting...

Sha i got sumthing to ask u, dlm sms u said u hate ur life without someone to talk to n bile along kat umah, wat u do? senyap, keluar rumah, balik lambat, along keep on feeling odd...

Just only just now my nenek from father side kate die balik awal to meet me, i waited till 5pm bro ask to call dad, then dad kate tk jadi sal balik lambat...but gd thing they will b staying in singapore for a while but bad news, dad will not b following as he following step mum n fam go KL...

He break my heart 3times in a row for now, why everytime when some event happen to me or wen i wan him, he will tend to bck off, i got lots of questions in mind for him but idk how to express it...
wat is the 3times he do to break my heart.
1st:Didnt attend my 1st day of NS
2nd:Gave Money to me n ask me to bring adik2 g beli baju raya sendiri!
3rd: He didnt even bother to meet me when i 1st book out tat is Hari Raya...

Ayah, ayah memang sentiasa baik tapi byk pekara yg perlu perhatian ayah langgsung tk ambik duli, nape ayah buat cam ni? ape yg along buat samapi ayah cam ni? along andi n shasha lom kawin tau pun tunang, kite masih perlu seorang ayah yg look after us, ibu did her part as a mum, now we need ayahnye part...

Just by thinking abt ayah, i can just brust out of tears...

IM BCK!!!!

Dear Diary,

IM HOME!!! Gosh, i miss home so much...

Let me tell u guys wat had been happening to me during my ns days ok, im excited to tell all of u, n im sure u guys r excited to hear abt it...when i got in camp, im blur like hell, but thank god i know where is my company n its location, so i just follow the ppl around there...they assign us to our platoon n sections, oh just to let u all know, im in Alpha company (yellow colour) platoon 2 section 4, haha...my bunk mate consist of 6chinese n 2malay(include me), kinda bored but at least got one malay to talk to...then we fall in to get our army staff, i tell u, the big black bag is dam heavy, with one plastic bag of uniform n a field bag, i was like hanging on, stop once in a while, then got in the big tent to check items n go form up to our sections, tell u, my platoon is in lvl3, n imagine u carrying abt 15kg big black bag n abt 10kg field bag up to lvl3, i was like omg, i cannot handle it any more...

Skip the 1st few days, as days goes by, i felt scared i might not have friends, but in the end, a few boys talked to me n since im quiet, i need to open up, at least sit n listen or talk bck...the funny part is when shower time, i always take my time to take my clothes n towel n go toilet, n once a boy came to me n say "Eh sab! dah mandi ke lom??" i say not yet he say "Kau gi mandi skrg, jom ah semua mandi same2", i just said ok n i got take my things n went toilet n when i got in guess wat i saw, the boy, only him was naked, n oh our toilet got door, weeee...but he didnt use the door, he just open it, then u saw me n say "Dtg pun kau", i was like OMG, i cover my eyes n walk to the nearest wall, ahah...then when someone finish i got in dash inside, haha...

One of the days he said "Eh sab, cpt ah g mandi, aku nk tgk kau bogel" haha!!! i was like WTF, but thank god he didnt saw me ah...

Other then him, all the malay boys was good to me, days goes by, i talk to each n everyone of them more n more, n oh just to let u know in our company me n firdaus were the only 2 nurses, haha, n we both were assign in the same platoon n we both were toilet ic...wth rite...

but ppl, no worries, army is always tough, but i got friends there now, so i got lesser problems, only tat i miss my girl/boyfriends go much n i missed mum dad bro n sis too...i will try to update everytime i book out ok...no worries...Love u guys...XOXO

The Big Day

Dear Diary,

2day is the big day for ur little boboy...im going to report to camp by 11am, so im suppose to sleep but i just cant, my mind keep on thinking wats going to happen to me in camp, 1st day, ppl say isnt going to b tough, but i wont depend on tat, sumtimes 1st day could b rough, thanks friends n fam for the gd luck n all the best msges n comments, really appreciate it, kak su n kak hos dont worry abt me so much k, i might b manja n sweet most of the time, but here i am going to learn how to b tough to protect the manjaness...

Pack my bag already, just need to get a few stuff from sheng shong with mum later on n then im off.

To Sister, im happy tat u actually did it, all the problems will soon go away ok, *BIG HUG* dont worry abt along, along will b fine...

To Ayah, im really disappointed with u ayah, im more disappointed tat ayah give along some money to spent with adik for raya, we bought our baju raya with ibu already, but why cant ayah bring adik2 go shopping while im away? it wont hurt if u could just step in Singapore for just one day, u keep on telling me i will understand once i get married, ayah, married or not married, who r we to u? adopted sons n daughter? adik yg dgn ayah tu skrg kecik tau, she got more attention from u n we dont get enough, ape lagi shasha, she misses u so much, even when i ask u to call her to give her the money, wat u do? u just complain to me tat if u call her, sister will delay the timing...i seriously dont get u ayah, u change so much, n not to forget, ur 1ST SON! going ns today, n u dont bother to attend, if cant follow all the way to camp, u can at least send me to yck...if ayah talk to me abt ayah buzy dgn keje? what is ibu doing? she take leave just to send me, all ur sons n daughter misses u SO much n wanting to spent at least sometime, just a question ayah, do u wan to spent a whole day just with us? along seriously rindu the time sebelom ayah kahwin, u spent time with us almost every weekend, but now? if we dont go there, u will never step in here to spent time with us...we r not yet adults tau ayah, we r still teenagers, let me spell it for u T-E-E-N-A-G-E-R-S...dah la ayah, do it ur way, i dont wan to tell u wat u suppose to do as a father...my last words for u IMISSYOU&WILLALWAYSLOVEYOU...

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