A surprized For Me

Dear Diary,

Guess wat i found when cleaning the house?? Haha my old old pictures, n i even found my picture when i a little kid in pri school, look how white i am seh, nvm, i know one day i can b as white as i am last time, cuz im soon going to work in a close environment where sun light cannot pass through...haha...Well enjoy looking at me when i was young...hahahax


And to mum, congratulation in making a total of 12 kuihs during 1 week, haha, well in picture there is 10 but include cake and the P word thingy, orange in colour...nvm..lol,

Oh and today another surprising thing happen to me, my wish finally come true, my sis called dad to buy baju kurung, i didn't even plan, n hey i wan to kemas rumah but mum insist i go, so i got leaving all the house work for her to do, so bad seh me...then me bro n sis together when to meet dad, when i finally get to c his face, nothing in my mind expect mum, is bothering me, so bro n sis each got a pair for baju kurung n shoe, while i only have baju kurung, well, seriously, if im usually like tat, i would feel so jealous, but today i didnt feel abit of jealous, i was extremely happy to at least meet him for so very long time, thank you god, you know i badly wanted to c my dad, thank you sis for calling him, and thank you atika for making me realize tat for sure one day i will see him...i dont know suddenly my Hari Raya Mood was turn on again...im Alive..love ya ppl..

Selamat Hari Raya In Advance...

2days of Sadness but Did Enjoy

Dear Diary,

Its has been 2 days now, since i had been waiting for my dad to at least see me and sibling for the last time b4 Raya, but he never show up ones, i keep on asking grandmum, where is Ayah, but she keep on answering the same thing, he is buzy with work or baby sister is feeling sick. I totally dont understand why he cant find a specific timing to make out with us? Is baby sister dieseas tat terrible tat she can spread it to everyone? I guess not, i still remember, ones i was little or either one of my siblings, if we need to go Kampong, he dont care if we r sick or not, he just bring us there and at Kampong we get some rest...Skip Lil.Sister

Ayah setiap tahun akan belikan kami at least 1pasang of baju kurung, 1pasang of baju jalan, 1pasang kasut, seorang, tapi kali ni, saya tak tahu kenapa, tapi saya teringin sekali untok berjln2 sesama ayah dan adik2, tetapi byk alasan yg diberi, dari ayah, atau pun dari saya, kalu daripada saya, semuanya tentang sekolah, kali ni, saya holiday kene sekali untok keluar bersame, tetapi, adik2 pulak yg ada masalah, iya itu, peperiksaan ahir tahun. Sebab byk sekali alasan, saya tidak dpt ada perluang untok bergembira dgn Ayah. Baru saja tadi ayah mahu ajak beli baju-baju tetapi saya menolaknya kerana iya sudah lewat malam, saya harus membuat kerja rumah sehingga makcik-pakcik saya tiba esok petang untok berbuka sama-sama...

Saya bilang ibu semua masalah saya hadapi masa ni, ibu cuma boleh menenagkan saya dan suruh saya bersabah, semasa saya tiba di rumah sepupu saya, bila waktunya azan, saya terus msk dlm tandas dan menangis kerana Ayah tidak ada bersama, dan bila saya tengok dgn jelas keluarga di hadapan saya, semuanya ade, Ayah, Ibu, Adik, Abg, Kakak, 3keluarga penuh ada di hadapan saya, saya lebih bertambah sedih, sepupu perempuan saya nampak mata saya berair, tapi saya tidak bilang apa-apa padanya. Selepas makan mlm, saya, adik-beradik dan sepupu yg besar sahaja keluar dari rumah untok ambil angin, dan kami ada byk masa gembira bersama, gambanya ada dibawah...sampai disini sahaja saya mahu berbual, saya sekarang mahu habiskan kerja rumah...

My wish for Hari Raya, to have lots of fun with family and friend expecialy my mum, dad and sibling...I LOVE ALL...

Im feeling not appreciated

Dear Diary,

You know wat? i kinda felt not appreciated either at home or in school, at home, for the past 1week of holiday, i planned to sit at home n rest, since its fasting month, n for sure i will b tired, but i had to help in make the kuihs and going for religous reading, ITS tireing ok, imagine i have to wake up after fasting started, at 7am, getting ready to go for religous reading and when reach home, str8 do the kuih, walau, then tired i open comp awhile and then sleep...its like everyday la...

then come tis week, on the 1st dat tat is monday, she nag at me, along pat rumah tau buat pe? main computer je terus, tgk, pinggan semua tak cuci, lantai tak mop, lagsir tak bukak...so wat is she try to say anyway, tat i have been playing computer everyday without doing anything? hello, i use the comp after i done wat u ask and now u say i use comp everytime, hey its not my fault, im in the holidays, so long i never use comp tat long and yesterday i clean the entire house, and i use the comp only at night. and yesterday i over heard mum and grandmum both gossiping abt me, ppl got attitude on their own, i wan to b angry, i wan to b sad, i wan to evil, i wan to b good, so wat, its MY attitude, and my mood swings faster now of tis days, bcuz ppl 1st dont appreciate me, 2nd never think of me, 3rd never let me do wat i wan, im 18, i wan to at least b free at home, if u wan to control, do so when im out of the house...

and why i say in school, cuz i heard from bestie tat he dont like me being a leader, cuz of WAT? im slow, im forgetful, hey tis is like my extreme long time since i been a leader, the last time i been a leader was sec3 1st term, leading the sec1 oretation camp...also i SUX at it...if u dont like me being a leader in the 1st place, why dont u tell me straight, so i can tell the class, i dont care if they hate me or anything, hate me as much as they want cuz at least they will b a better leader, and not only him, someone i trust and asked for advise for in being a leader, wat is he? thinking so big, so huge, if u hate me being a leader cuz im not being a GOOD leader like u say so, tell me, so i can tell teacher YOU be the leader instead of me...

and atika, sometimes i look in the msn, u r not online, sometimes i really wan someone to talk to but u r not there, when i look for others, all r not there, e.g anis, aishah, asyraf, i wan to say zubai, she already have much problems, so i dont wan her to carry my problems with her...atika problem is settled, n i guess i can yes...oh, when u guys wan me to msg or anything, please, 1st you guys will reply EXTREME late, untill ones i fall asleep and the person replied me abt 2-3hours later...2nd u guys might b buzy to just reply...i took some of my time making kuih to reply msges...nvm i guess, everything will b JUST fine IF im alone...

HOW I LOVE TO BE ALONE...HERE TAT? ALONE!!!!!!

a wonderful dream

Hey,

You guys wan to know something? I got a very wonderful dream and my grandmum bought lots of food from geylang...wow..

Today, was suppose to go swimming in school, but i woke up late, so msg pamy tat i will b coming late, but she say she cant go...lucky she say tat b4 i go straight to bath. So go back to sleep and guess wat, i dream i got a big bro, he is tough, kinda cute and loves to play sport..hehe...so here we at home, he disturbs me, making me laugh, then he ask, nak main bola dgn kwn abg tak? i just say yes, and we go, lol, i didnt play, i just sit there n look at him play and goal...was really happy, i was reality smiling seh. Then suddenly a group of boys come to me, n was legally disturbing me, my bro just stop his game, looked at me being disturb, ran to the boys and push one of them away, and say, wat r u doing bullying my brother? then all of the sudden, i saw one of the boys just stand in front of my bro, n say, battle, if u win i wont even bother touching him, if u lose, he is next we bash up...i was like omg..my bro hold me head, n next i heard, i loud sound, i turn, my bro other hand, punch the boy's face...from there, the group of boys run away, when bro turn n look at me, he smiled and i woke up...shit, i wan continue the dream seh, wish i dont have to wake up...keep on dreaming, wahh,i like...

Then, i woke up, i see, lots of sms, n calls, haha, it wasn't silent mode, haha..clean the sweep the whole house, wash the dishes, make sure everything is in line, haha, then finally im done, then take shower, n gradmum come home, guess wat, she bought muntakbak and roti john, my favorite..hehe, wait for break-fast and we eat....wow i tell um its a long time since, i eaten tis, wow...





an guess wat, anis made something for me, look look...cool rite...i like...hahaha

Confession From A Restless Heart

Atika tis song is for you...go baby girl...

I really cant stand ppl who cant see me relax, yesterday i was scolded just by sitting at home n doing nothing...and she also said 1week of holiday, wat u do? nothing rite? wth, wat am i invincible is it? I help you will the cookies, the kuih for raye and now u said like tis...i was really frustrated la..

Guess wat i did today to PROVED tat im doing something at home, i finish us the kuih tat she done, clean the house, sweep the floor, take out the curtains and the pins for cleanning and did not on the computer for a bit also, only now, after satisfying her, i can finally touch the computer in peace...ish, i hate when ppl c me doing nothing, for sure not tis person say but other ppl will say...haiz

I wan a BIG brother, who can teach me how to b tough, play sports with me, do wat boys suppose to do, protect me from danger, hang out with me. idc if he disturbs me or irritates me, cuz tat is wat brothers r mend to do...and also sisters whom does houseworks, cooking, i can manja-manja with, go shopping with me. Why im saying all tis, cuz i cant b a big brother, cuz my younger brother needs an attention from a tough person and when he hang out, he prefer to hang out with ppl of his type, n my sister, i dont see her do all those i mention, instead, she always go out till late night, hang out with her friends, have GOD-BROTHER who i can say is way better then me...

And hey, i hate hairs all over my body, its disgusting, i hate it cuz ppl keep on staring at it and some would comment, i HATE bad comments on my body...how i wish, i was born hairless, like mayb those Chinese, Japanese, or the Eurasians, i wan to have a male model body. I so jealous..sobsob...nvm lets make a goal. after NS, im going for a full body waxing for male...woohoo...idc wat ppl wan to say...hmph, i wan to wear 3/4 pant DAM IT!!

Im Bored, so i cam across tis, n the FONT i use...try it

Asyraf, can u play like him??? Hahaha, i really adore him, he knows how to play guitar and also sing at the same time, oh n he is kinda cute...hahaha

OHk, BBB and ATIKA, if u guys were thinking where i edit my picture, i didnt download or anything but i use it in internet, its cool, i like it alot...go for it n try...
http://picnik.com/

Shopping Addictive...hahaha

Dear Diary,

As you can see, i bought 2things i wanted badly, haha, of course, la i wont buying tis by myself rite, today i meet anis, to give her back her file, as promised, so after given her, her file, we go wonder around CWP, imagine just for one mall, we too abt 3hours, haha, me and anis, loves to shop, so we can shop for hours if not fasting tat is, i love my lucky capsule, i dont care it ppl say its cabsule or capsule, im still sticking with capsule...i dont wan to say tube cuz ppl thought im wearing a tube dress, haha...haiz anis

One very fine day, we bring our friends along n we either window or shopping all over singapore and once we got a job, we go out country, n shop there, hahaha...guess wat, my compact poweder box, my mum thought its a ciggeratte box, hahahaha...

LET ME WARN YOU...NO SHARING OF MY LOREAL COMPACT POWDER...

Atika's Birthday, BestFriend Day and Wow

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ATIKA
May All Your Wishes Come True,
I Will Wish Tat God Will Always B By Your Side
And Solve Your Problems.

Her Birthday Wish Is
"I Wish Afiq, Asyraf, Sabri, Pamela, Shikin, Zubaidah And Aishah
Will B Together With Me Forever"

I Hope For That Wish To Come True Too...

Guess Wat, Pam And Me Bought Her Presents...Woohoo Its Cute,
But Too Bad, I Lazy To Upload The Present Pictures...

So Right After Swimming,
Atika & Pam Eat Lunch, Haha, I Didnt Cuz Im Fasting...Lol
too bad pam, cant follow us
She Got work....haiz
but then its ok, we got to go take bus together with her,
so me and atika decided to go take atika's photoshoot photos
And suddenly i say tis, wow, i never had a bestfriend day...haha
n i call today also a BESTFRIEND DAY..
we go shop around bugis street, vivo, penisula
then look at the time, its 5pm+, so we go up to vivo
and play with water, sadly, only water tat reach our ankles is available
omg look at the time, so msged syahidah , meeting her near atika house
to break-fast...i heard its yassin but turn out to b adam...hahah

So finally, i can break fast, the adam's foods
are so yummy and the place is cleaned
only sometimes the service isnt tat good, cuz
they forget if a customer order somethings...
it took abt 15mins -30mins for me to get my milo peng,
thanks to atika to remind them abt my milo...
so decided to go meet him under his block, but he was no where to
be found...atika msged him...
so we understanding, know la, he got some class
so while waiting, we talk nonsense, we laugh at each other, n guess wat
we laugh at each other when we said PEANUT!!! hahahaha
there is Black, Oily, Fat and Peanut...hahaha choose which one u want,
haiz smoke smoke smoke, bored, and atika got really restless.

It 11.05pm and i got to pee, but we saw his car,
omg, so we hide, atika got angry, me n syahidah got confused
then me n syahidah hide near the stairs, n i got to pee,shit
the place were so hot, n bored, so me n syah make noises, to make it
not a hot place, cuz someone is angry so its hot la...
then we got tired, n me n syahidah sneak out of the place,
hahaha was so funny la, then mum called,
u know wat mum do best rite, nag nag nag nag nag

Ones Its done, i look at the time, its 12am sia, i got worried n so is syahidah,
walk atika home n we go to bus stop to go yishun,
but we drop at khatib,
lucky i saw there is a train to kranji abt 12.30am, i was relief from worrying,
took lots of pictures,
reached woodlands, got scared to walk hm,
took last bus n guess wat, passenger VS driver
both tired so cant settle in easier way...funny la
just bcuz of where driver park the bus...hahahx
i giggled everytime the passenger talk, with the Indian assent, no offences Indian friends
hahaha...
got home, b4 mum nag, i shoot all word abt
wat happen today, starting with the driver n passenger...
so bath, chat on msn for a while, then sleep...

So tired...*yawn* im going to sleep

Helping mum Make Cookies For Raya

Dear Diary,

Im feeling the Hari Rayaness, woohoo, im in the hari raya mood, so help mum make the chocolate cookies, as u can see on top...haha, and while helping, im also listenning to the radio, so is mum, haha, guess wat, the hari raya songs, is so incrediblly nice, mum was so surprize tat i was happy to hear the songs, so i straight away on comp, n ask mum to help me look for the songs haha, n there u go, in my blog is the songs i like...thanks mum...