Holiday Fading While Nightmare Is Ariving

Dear Diary

Finally this hoilday is fading in a weeks time but, the nightmare tat is the attachment is arriving, its kinda scary to just think abt it, but one thing abt this nightmare, we could see our old staffs back, really missed them. But our teacher is not our old teacher, i wan miss rafika, i dont wan some other teacher, but Sabri, welcome to the reality world, u will b having a new teacher weather u like it or not.

Think positive, who knows this teacher could be like miss rafika or even better? Hmm...But i still consider miss rafika my fav teacher, school is like so fast and attachment is like so long, how i wish there would b a clock tat could reverse time n i wan me n class to spent more time with miss rafika...

I heard tat after Puasa, Miss rafika is inviting the whole class to her house to eat n have fun with her...wow, i'm really into it, n also to see my classmate b4 going to back to the working world...Well, tis is life, cant be sitting at home n do nothing...hehe, futhermore, i'm a guy, n my family n my future family will b needing me, so Sabri best of luck , hope u get and 'A' or a 'B+' during ur attachment....

Oh, almost forgotten, to all my Nursing Friends, i would like to wish all of u, Best of luck for ur attachment...Tats alll for now...Bye All...


PS: Do Update Me, Abt The Raya Thingy And Our Meeting With Miss Rafika...Thank You...

Trial If Ok Then Do More

FRIENDS FOREVER

MY VERY FIRST ART WORK...HMM NO REALLY NICE

How Can I Change This Incident?

Dear Diary,

During tis fasting month i was really happy but then last 2days some one called my hp. And guess wat, he found my number in the toilet n i did not wrote it. So we just talk n talk, then i dont know how but he suddenly felt in love with me, weird rite. This had been continued since tat day and he called my hp n start like tis "Hi sayang". N he is really into me u know, we have not met or even seen each other but he said he got people to protect me from danger, tat made me scared, i was really worried, n u know i even dream abt wats going to happen next. Its kinda too late to ignore or do anything now, just left me n his feelings tats all, i just have to b a bit braver n talk to him abt why i dont accept his love...but hopefully he would understand. Just Need to question u all abit ok...

Question....
1. Does My Voice Sound Manje?
2. Is My Attitude Towards People Attract Gay?
3. Why Does He Love Me?
4. Did I did Something Wrong?
5. How Do I End This By Not Hurting His Heart n Just B My Friend?

If U could please Answer The Questions k...

I wan my few weeks of holiday to just b me n my life n family n friend...No Gf Or Bf. And for ur infor i'm just scared to have either one n they just make me scared of love...now i'm very far from knowing how to love...but its ok, i'm growing rite...help me people...Sob Sob ='(

Is My Brain Working

Try It, Who Knows U R Better Then Me...HeHe

Boys R Not Meant To Be Scared Of...

Dear Diary,

A few days ago i just realize tat boys are not meant to b scared of cause there r normal creatures only with a bit of disordered attitude...hehe...Ya when they fight or get angry, it could be a bit scary cause they r hurting each other. Wat make me scared of boys is tat, when i was little, i always got beaten up by my father by belt and cane, when to school, got shamed by him in front of my teacher, meaning i was beaten in front of the teacher by his hand...pain u know...In school, the boys like to disturb me, n u know who always at my side? Its the girls. They will sometimes defend for me...tis had been continuing till now...but when i grew up, if i'm alone anywhere, i saw guys winking or staring(different manner) at me, n asking to follow them, but of course i did not follow them la...

But Now...I think i know how to defend myself but still need help...hehe
So Guys Who Love To Bully Me!!! LIKE SUHAIMI!!! I WILL KILL U!!!

Now Abt Holiday & Puasa
Oh My God!!! Its Darn Boring Seh...I dont know wat to do...Cant really go out...But i promised myself, 2nd week of holiday, i will start my house cleaning, painting, do some work out and abt of revision...then at night, ones everything is settle either do some touch up on blog, friendster n mayb play MAPLE STORY...WoooHooo....Tats All La...Muckzz

Atika Birthday

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO ATIKA

She Look Adorable intis picture

Hope U Have Fun With Ur New Friend The Big Stich.

Who is Softer??

Dear Diary,

For a while i keep on thinking...
Tis is between us only OK friends?
In This Three Person, Who is Softest?
Sabri, Fazli OR Hidayat class D?

Sabri tahu its kinda weird to talk like tis but i had too
its my blog, i had to write my feelings here...
Ok...Start From 1st Sabri

Sabri is A Soft-hearted boy, Walk Like A Model...Shy
Hated Soccer, Loves Shopping, Emotional At Times...Cant b Seen

Fazli is kinda rough, good In Controlling Emotional, Open To all
Loves The Khicten, Hated Soccer

Hidayat, Talkative Guy, Loves His Hair....Not Really Shy
Shopping I guess He Like, especially shop For bags,
Emotional?? I don't Think so...

So as U Can C People, I'm Softest In School, I Wan To B Normal Like Others
But Wat I Can Do?
If I Train, Like Wat I Want To Do N Some Of My Aunties Wan Me To Do,
If I'm Still Soft N Shy, My Body Will just Bring Shame
To all People...Haiz, Its Ok La, I Will Do Wat I Can 1st
Then Will Decied Wat To DO....haha

But I Still Dont Get It? How Come I Got Lots Of Love From Family & Friends?
Dont They Get Tired Of Me? Manje Sini MAnje Sane?
Emo Here N There ( Like Kak J Said Emo Shit) Haha...
i'm Huge Btw...Anyway, Love All My Friends....

Sentosa Trip With Friends

Us At The Beach...2People Missing...Charlynne n Priya

Us At Vivo City....Again 2people Missing...haiyo

Dear Diary,

Yesterday on the 12Semptember, I went to Sentosa With a Group Of Friends, Its fun U know...So Far, When I Go There, No Problem At All, The Depression Thingy Was Gone For A While, Then Chantal said I look As If I'm Under Drepression...HaHa

K lah WatEver...But Did Have A Great Time...I Heard All Agreed To Stay Till 6pm N Guess Wat, 4 n 5pm Already All Of Them Bath N Get Ready To Go Hm, left With Some SuporTive People likE Me, Atika, Maybelline, Charlynne, Priya, Chantal n Boyfriend and KaK Jamie...We Stay At Beach Till 6.30pm, Then We Go Vivo To Eat, After Eat, play At The Playground then got Warned My Some Security Guard, Cause Its Only For Children Below 12...HaHa...Then Around 9+ We Sat At The Top Of Vivo Tat Where Near To The Sea Looking Place...HaHa...we Talk Talk, gossip (Oppes)...haha...Stay till 10pm...wow...Guess Wat? I Reach Hm right B4 My Mum Tat mean 11pm....haha...But I Dont Regrat Going Sentosa....

For those who went to Sentosa, Love U guys...
For those who did not go...hopefully Next time We get to Spent time together...

LAST DAY OF SCH SAK!!! Nvm u people got own thing to do, so dont worry ks..Muckz

For All My Muslim Friends Selamat Berpuasa...Jgn Tak Puasa Lak...PaHala, rare Thing to get u know...haha...i guess la...bye peeps

Why i'm a louzy person....

Dear Diary,

2day is Behaviour Science test, well i dont have much comment on it, its kinda ok la, cannot say easy or hard...but at least hopfully i could get either C or B...phobia to get D. After the test, me and my friends go eat at KFC...but atika n shikin did not eat with us cause b4 we all wanted to eat at long john but the place cramp n the food is expensive, so atika n shikin felt lazy to follow so they stay n eat there...whahaha...

When going home tat time, we all did our own thing, so i deiced to sit n listen to music, suddenly i felt the EMO thingy came to me n i started to think abt who i m to people? why n why n why? I cant stand it almost cried but cant cause my frens were there, we took pictures but lazy to update...I dont know why i cant tell anyone abt my problems cause if i do my heart will like pump very fast n really i dont wan to cry in front of my friends...I could only express it in tis kind of way tat is by blogging n chatting...

Its kinda bored for person who had been reading my blog...but those who dont know mayb i write...i really cant study due to tis thing is stuck in my brain, I ones ask a guy to compare me n a soft guy from class e...and the good news is tat he said the boy from class e is much irritating n kinda lazy when attachment, bad news is tat i'm much softer then him, when i heard tat my heart drop n broken to pieces...but i keep my cool n nood...its ok i dont mind...

I'm a brother of 2siblings, n u know wat i cant handle them, n everyone is counting on me to take care of them, it realy give me lots of stress and u know wat, everytime my mum told me abt how she feel when my sis go out hm n come hm late, i felt like i'm not a great brother...i'm too soft hearted...n i got tis feeling people is comparing me with my cousin...

Trying my heart to change but nothing is working, my heart for guys is still there, wanted to get rite of it but cant, a guy told me to pray to god n stay close to him n i could change, now i'm doing it and hopefully one day i could change...so far no Hot Stuff in school...tats a good sign...

I cant leave on my own, or else my EMO Self will appear n i will start to think tis n tat, like eg...when my frens started to talk to each other n sometimes i'm either infront or behind alone...tats when my EMO self will appear, I know i'm not talkative or anything, i'm boring and nothing to my friends, but looking at them happy makes me happy, i never wan to c my friends sad, expectionlly Atika & Zubai...Fau not tat i forget u or something but i dont know, i cant really talk to u when u r sad, hehe scared u cry...hehe

Tis EMO thingy is really making me lose control of myself, even Mariia wanted to talk to me but i just cant let it out...

I felt Not Loved when i'm Already Being Loved, I dont feel Secure when i'm Already Secure.

This Wed, I force myself to go to Sentosa, with or not with my friends, but if with my friends it would b even better...but who knows i might drown when i go swimming at sentosa, got accident b4 reaching sentosa, only god knows...


I try to control my Emotion, but i guess its overloaded n i cant handle it , n i Losing control.
Prepare Urself,
Who knows i might not continue writing my blog,
mayb i die during my sleeping time?

Kak J, I'm really sorry, tomorrow i cant go Pool with u n friends due to not feeling well...




PS: Tis is only 40% or my problem...

Fun Day Today

Dear Dairy,

I'm Happy To See My Friends Are Back Together...Love Them So Much...

Guess wat, today after the boring talk n the test today, i n zubai, aishah n fau's gang go hm together, igatkan atika nak balik dgn kte seh, tapi tengok haiz, people with bf now a days are like tis one. HaHaHaHa......takde la, if u wan to go with him, just go ya...sabri paham...then after we took the trian, n saw one Minah Tudong, pakaian ok, tapi pakai selepa n guess wat, she wear clutex...hitam lagi tu, astarfilwahalazim....then me, aishah n zubai bounce...haha..u know wat i mean...from marina bay to woodlands we all talk tapi aishah kene tinggalkan us due to she live at toa payoh...like DUH! Me N zubai talk talk...hahaha...funny seh...then we decided to go libirary to talk, i dont wan zubai to feel upset abt something or wat, talk to her, then zubai not feeling comfatable talking so soft, u know zubai kan...loud specker...whahaha...so we go shopping n guess wat we bought, TOYS!!!! weeee....zubai love her toy so much she even play with it, it so cute but irritating la...takde la zubai...mine is sweet n cute n adorable...hehe....k lah lastly we shop for clothing...haha me n zubai got goal u know, to b the hunk n babe...wahahaha...then go home eat ice-cream on comp then msn, dont know sudden got tis emo thing came to me...

U Know Azmi?? Class C?? Funny Seh He...I also dont know i even met him in school...msn with him for a while then we exchange numbers n guess wat, i did not expect him to call me, yet he called, hmm...talk to him, non important things la...guess wat, he is kinda nice on phone, dont know if real life he is tis nice, but in the middle he got angry at something n scold n scold, SCARY seh, dont wish he would do tat in real life...terkecet jugat kat situ...whahaha...talk talk talk then... he got to go n sleep, welll as for me i wrote tis then i go to sleep...hehe...play with my twin stitch u know the cartoon lilo & Stitch...ya it cute n cuddly...weeeee...tats all la...got to sleep...bye all

Today is not my day!!

Dear Diary,

Today, during sch time, i came earlier then b4, i reach b4 8.45am, i was all alone, i dont even feeling like calling or smsming anyone, a really huge feeling tat make me felt so down tat day, like usual, aishah likes to tikle me, but today, i did not feel anything, is tat normal?...you ping caught me emoing, but i just cant revel wats in my heart, the door to let everyone know is lock n the key is no way found...the feelings to the pian of something is really huriting my feelings and i could not let it out, the only thing i can do is keep quiet n do my stuff...but my frens made me laugh, but the pain is still in my heart...I really feel like dieing...k lah the more i talk, made me much sad...

LET B ALONE IF I WAN TOO OK???

kill me

CAN ANYONE KILL ME!!!!!!!!

PLEASE

KILL ME!!!!!

I DONT WAN TO LIVE!!!

This Is Just The beginning...Soon It will Bleed

During RCHN Camp & Today's stuff

Dear Diary,


Red Cross Camp was super but guess wat, its only super when part we dont have to do anything and making friends, love the nightwalk...hehe took loads of pictures during camp...hehe wan to c? here goes...

Shu Cong & Me...he is cute...lol

Justin & Me

Hefang & me

Baizura & Me

JOVIAN & Me

Suhaimi & Me (He Scared of me, tats why take photo so far from me)

Fitri & Me (At lest he ok, not like suhaimi)

Yan Ting & Me (She our only girl in group...hehe)

Me & Zubai...haha, i look weird

Me, Raudah, Zubai & Emma

Ain, sherlyn, me & who r? 4got the name

The Three Boys, making funny face...wahahaha

My group making our own flag...

That all bout the camp, quiet boring rite...hehe

Today, ms rafika & mdm tan revel our marks, i was extremly dissapointed, i was not really happy the whole day, atika gave me a letter, cant tell anyone but tis to atika, I'm ur bestfriends atika, sabri lebih sedih kalau atika, pamela, zubai & aishah takde, tapi, walau pun atika nak pergi dgn kwn atika, sabri tak kesah, tapi sabri akan tetap rase atika sebelah sabri. Semua manusia ade kwn kan atika, sabri tahu atika byk kwn. Ape ape terjadi pun, sabri nak tengok kwn kwn sabri semua gembia, sabri tak hapi takpe, asalkan kwn sabri hapi, lagi lagi atika, rindu atika...jgn risau, atika akan tetap jgn bestfriend sabri walaupun kite jauh...

Eh eh, Air mate sabri meleleh la...

2day, after sch, we go hm, thought of going hm with atika, pam, zubai, aishah n kak j, but i dont know suddenly atika hilang, cam magic gitu eh...hehe, then left me zubai, aishah n kak j, talk, laugh, joke together, all of us were hungry, so we eat at old chung key, haha then we talk at one shop there untill 6pm, n kak j i love ur storys, its so interesting, wonder how my love story will begin??? k lah wan to study then sleep la...ok byebyebye all...take care ya...hehe