So Sorry

I won't b Back For Quite Some Times...Comp Down

Changing Of Ward!!! & Last Week SIM Trainning

Dear Diary,

AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!My group had to change ward out of the sudden...go down 1 level that is from Ward63 to Ward53...haiz...from the ward that only have 6patients, now i had to deal with 8patients...AHHH stess for additional of 2 more patients...i think i will b fine b'cause the enviroment of the ward is like sweet kind u know...bright n not dark and sleepy...hehe...the cubical look so long as if i'm looking at 15 patients in a cubical...u know wat i mean...hoply the AN and SN or even the Ward Sister is kind...I wan to get my log book sign as soon as possible...at least by tis week i wan to get 18skills done, thats ok for me...

U wan to know something...that time when briefing in the afternoon, Ms Rafikah said tis and straing at me till the end..."I dont wan my student to slag when they know they got good marks" are u think wat i'm thinking, she is saying that i'm good or even great...hehe but focus on the skills not the grade...But i think overall i'm good to b an AN...lol prasing myself, only my pancuality need to b improve...haiz.

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I forgot to write tis abt "My SIM trainning"....Sim trainnig was so fun, but my fren bully me and ask the teacher to call me to do the vital sign as a roll player...haiya but overall i'm so happy when i got to meet my bestie and almost all my friends...can't wait la to end of attchment, i wan to eat together with my frens again...ok lah looks like i got nothing elso to write abt...just one thing i wan to SHOUT!!! EhmEhm!!!

SABRI FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck That Patient...but love my ANs

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was my worst day ever and i never knew that my last day at ward 41 was such in a mess...yesterday afternoon only got 3 pupils and i'm alone at the back while my frens was at the front...then one of my patients was a bit crazy and my Staff Nurse told me to give anything he want and to follow where ever he go...haiz...u know wat he want, handphone, milo, cold water and APPLE JUICE (his fav) hehe...well handphone was a cotlessphone...hehe...he treated me as if i was like a dog or somthing, people around me laugh at me but lucky my God Mum stand by me...hehe. My other patients tell me next time dont follow where ever he go, let him b n let him fall...well as a nurse i can't do that. My this patient that is crazy, he will get hot when i dont do as told, and if someone is disturbing him when he is talking on the phone...his sister almost got slap by him...wow...so far he follow wat i said to him and listen to me...thats good but see him every min will make me go even crazier then him...haiz...here his picture ...lol i took it quietly...muahahahaha

See...he even follow the sleeping style as the abang infont...haiz

But mostly, i'm going to miss this 2 Assistant Nurse (Kak Zarina) and The Staff there (Kak Ain)
Missing there so much....here the picture...u can see which one AN and Staff...

Kakak Zarina,Me and Kakak Ain

Sabri & Kakak Zarina

Me & Kakak Ain

LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tis Is My Worst Week & Going To Miss Them

Dear Diary,

On Monday, i did 2 wrong things that is, not helping my AN [Assistant Nurse] on Charting the I/O Chart...then i did not give my fren all the information abt a patient, and i just left him there in side the closed curtain with a comode all alone...then today, my teacher check on me, then she spotted out that i did not follow the instuction given from the school abt how to take the Blood Pressure...wow its the fifth week and i did 3wrong things all together...i'm dissapointed in myself and hoply i will improve myself when i got to another ward...

Next thing is that, tomoro i'm going back to school to have my SIM trainning. I heard from my frens that it could be a tough thing, but worth to laugh about, but i also have to learn somthing. Then friday is my last day at ward 41, i'm really going to missed all my AN, SN and some of the staff there, I thought of taking pictures with them but if only they are afternoon shift, if morning shift, it could be abit tougher becuase i had to ask them to take picture with me b4 they go home...haiz...haven time aready gabra "in a hurry" i think...k lah, i think i finish wat i wan to write and now i wan to read up on wat are the topic will come out tomoro for SIM trainnig...

M I in love???

Dear Diary,

When my friends keep on talking to me about their boyfriends, i felt like i'm not in the catigory of having any gf in the future...u know why? no girl would like to go out with a guy like me? But to b thier friends or adviser yes they will love to have one...You know i got a gay friend in msn [hey i'm not a gay he is] then when i chat with him, i said i'm soft and stright away he said "u know when choosing boyfriends, i prefer to have a guy the is macho and manly and as for soft guy, i prefer to only b friends"...then my thought goes like is he thinking i wan him to be my bf?

Then today, i was like thinking, i'm do not belong in both world stright or gay, means being bisexual also no used...lolz...I just wished one day, someone will come to me and said, hey do u wan me to help u change ur life? I will help u, i will not stop till u change...

There is one person said he will help me change but when he said lets go out and i will help u pick the clohtes the will not make u look sissy...then he log out, next day i said to him, when we r going to shop? he said i'm sorry but i'm so buzy...which means, he lied about helping me...humph! But is ok...i will wait till the person i could really help me to come... :-)

Don't look at cover only...read inside it also

Dear Diary,

To Fauziah: U no longer have to search any of my secret in my tis blog...wat i think is that its not save to only have 1 blog... :-)

To Suhaimi: Sorry to miss look at u...although u r not my closefriend, but when i hear how u talk to me at a diffrent tone, i almost wanted to cry because i had miss look at someone who is friendly to a weird guy...okok, wat makes me think he is weird? Its because everytime i look at him in school he will like make like flirty face, but yesterday make a lot of changes about him...he will disturb only when he is bored, if not he will like talk normaly like normal friend...he will like ask why u always late and stuff like that...oklah dont over praised someone too much later someone jealous ar... :-p

To The Rest Of My Friends: Hey guys i really missed u all so much...can't wait till end of attachment to go to school back and have fun...So hows your fourth week of attachment? Getting easier to communicate with patients? As for me, its still a bit hard to communicate because i'm like over shy but yet to become a successful nurse, i have to be brave and be puntual. K lah its almost 3am and yet tomoro i'm morning shift, i'm crazy, lolz...k lah hope to hear news from u all soon...MuckzZ...

A very Tiring Day!!!

Dear Diary,

Yesterday, i'm in the afternoon shift, it suppost to be boring u know, but today is like one crazy day, me and my frens keep on runnig here and there, chaging dipers la, feeding la, attend all patients needs...haiz...but u know, mine cubical is not 1/2 bad as my other frens cubical, i also dont know why la, mine cubical, only like 2weeks or more then got one/two patitent who will call us for tis and that...luckily there is one antie that is my patients wife, she talk to me abt her household and almost everything...but she is great cause she can talk to me, when i'm bored or nothing to do, i will come to her and on the spot she will like talk to me...but if i'm really bored, i will look for work such as look at my frens cubical if they need help or not...eh its almost 2am...hehe i have not done my prayers yet...better get starting or my mum will nag and nag till i do the thing she want me to do...k lah hope later night i will write again...hehe...nights...

To Emo Peeps And those Crazy people....

To People who Love Cutting Their Own Hand!

Cutting your own hand will never solve the problem within u...
you have to be brave and took to first step to solve your problems...
ya some say cutting ur own hand will give satifectory...as for me, it
will only give u pain and will give u more stress up...

Let me give u another idea to release your stress on some small/big
problems, 1st. Cry your whole eye out or 2nd. Scream your voice out.
That will release the stress...btw your could also feel the pain in them
too...better then cutting your own hand rite?

Btw...how do u wan to face God with your hand cut? All people wan to
see God with a very clean body, no cuts or anything correct...